i recently quit my job....actually, 7 months ago.....around then, i started to shut down and not deal with anything...including my girl of 4 years....
i felt like i didnt love her the way i should ....and i told her ...crushed her....and she did everything to stop it....but i stuck to my guns....we lived together this past year....and about 3 weeks ago, she moved out, got apt. 3 blocks from me........we stay(ed) in touch....close, we love each other, like family, etc.....and last week, she told me we cant talk or see each other like this anymore.....which makes sense, i wanted this, i asked for this breakup....she seems stronger now, goin out, moving on, i think she met someone that has interest in her...which gives her strength of course.
Now....i feel all the pain, question my decision, love her still....seems im a mess with her AND without her......im gonna start seein a shrink this week and sort things out.....but wondering why, since i caused the breakup, i feel like my world has ended...cant leave the house, I live inside my head and create crazy stories...cry all the time....i only remember the good times...the love.....and not the bad......i deserve this, but im causing my own pain......and miss her so.....am i an idiot?? wrong? is this normal??
Anyone!!! Help???!!!!