MelissaTN615

Hi. I also went through a breakup about 5 weeks and we had been together for 3 and 1/2 years. She ended up dating my best friend that just moved in with us. It took her not even two weeks to move on. Although it was a lesbian relationship it still is the same thing. I was and occasionally still am devistated by it. And I'm still living here with both of them and truly trying to be a good person about the whole thing. We even had a few horrible fights with one another where she told me that she truly never loved me and I was only convienent. I do not believe it. I know she was only trying to hurt me. But I am trying to remain strong. I know even if things didnt work out with the new girl and she wanted to come back and I took her back things would be great for a little while and then it would happen again. Its like this cycle and somewhere it has to be broken. Its very difficult. But there is someone out there that is going to make you feel great again. Until then work on yourself some. Look into differnt self esteem classes or get involved in different activites. Its hard. But I'm also realizing that life goes on wheather you want it to or not. I have a lot to look forward too and so do you. I even have been getting sexual fantasies in my dreams with my ex. So I know my heart is still attached. But eventually that will pass. I also want to hurry things up and have it be a few months down the line where I have moved on like she did, but it will come. Stay strong. and you can always "fake it until you make it" ..fake being happy and eventually u will be .. positive thinking

I understand exactly where you are coming from. I am also working on improving myself. Everything you said was like it was coming from me. Wow thats really neat. Anyway, Good Luck!

Well I want to thank everyone. I wanted you to know that I'm moving out this weekend. The situation got worse. She pretty much said that I was "convienent" and "she never thought she could do any better" and that she "truly" never loved me. Which I know shes trying to press my buttons. I understand like a month being convienent but 3 and 1/2 years? Whatever. SO we all have to learn lessons and go from there. I am going to work on myself some. I need to learn to love myself more and be happy about who I am. Thank you again for all of your support and advise.

for me its Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes Behind These Hazel Eyes lyrics Kelly Clarkson Seems like just yesterday You were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight Everything, it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong Now I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hanging on Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes I told you everything Opened up and let you in You made me feel alright For once in my life Now all that's left of me Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside 'Cause I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes Swallow me then spit me out For hating you, I blame myself Seeing you it kills me now No, I don't cry on the outside Anymore...

Thank you. As far as the apartment goes its in both names. I've decided to move out so I could find a better place, closer to where I work. As soon as I can save some money I'm moving out. I'm also searching differnt websites to find maybe a roommate so we can split the cost. Thank you for your concern.

Honestly, I don't believe she is. We had a REAL strong connection. I dont know what changed and when but I was completely blindsided by this. Thanks for your responce though. Melissa

I need some help. Mary and I starting going out in 2001. It was just supposed to be a "fling" and it turned into a relationship. We moved in together and everything was great. Last year she ended up "falling in love" with someone else. Well after 6 months of going though a break up and kinda getting over it, Mary and I start to get back together. Everything was great again.She told me everything you wanna hear about how we will get married and have a family and be together forever and how much she loved me. We were just getting back on our feet and got a new apartment together in Feb. In March, my friend Summer needed a place to stay and we wanted a roommate so she moved in at the end of the month. Then early April Mary tells me that "things arn't working out, and I walk all over her and she just dosn't want to be together anymore". This broke my heart all over again. But to make it worse, less than two weeks of breaking up she tells me that her and Summer are now going out. She told me she tried to wait but the attraction was "so STRONG" she couldn't. Now I am still living with them because I really have nowhere else to go until I can save some money up to move out. Everyday I try to deal with them together and seeing it. I know I need to move on but I want my gf back. I started taking an anti-depressent but I know it takes time to work. I can't help crying all the time. Even when I'm at work I have to fight the tears back. Summer barely talks to me and she says shes in the same position in a way and its unbelieveable to her too. Mary talks occasionally but she acts like she truly hates me. Again I know in time things change and even though its horrible now it will get better. I also try not to let Mary see me cry and get upset. While shes around I try to act as if it dosnt bother me, even while Mary is calling Summer "baby" and "hun" and snuggling together on the couch. Any comments would be welcome. Is it wrong of me to be upset at Summer or am I being selfish about this? I honestly am trying to see all sides here. Melissa