I really need some help and advice. I am to a point that I just don't think things can get any better. I am sad, upset and depressed. But that is something you would think I would be used to by now because I have been that way for over a year now.
I don't things will ever get better with Greg. He is dirty and out for himself and his adult kids and doesn't care who he steps on or hurts to get what he wants. I don't know what to do any more. I can actually say that I HATE him and everything he stands for. But I am to afraid of him getting Christy to leave. I am damned if I do and damned if I don't. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Like life is not worth even living any more if this is all I have to look forward to. Then I remember that my kids need me. If it was not for them I don't know what I would do. That leaves you with a real scary thought.
I guess that I should start at the beginning and fill you in on everything that I have went threw with Greg. This is going to be a long mail and for that I am so very sorry.
I have 3 boys from my second marriage they are 15, 11 and 4 years
old. I have a little girl from this marriage she is 1.
I am a step Mom to 3.
There are 2 boys 22, and 18 and 1 girl 20 who is the mother of my
Step Granddaughter who is 3.
I have been verbally and physically abused by the 18 year old boy, who has threatened to kill me several times and in front of my children.
He has also beat me up while I was 7 months pregnant with my
daughter. And my husband left with his son to keep him from going to jail when I called the police.
Greg even told me at this point that he felt trapped because I was pregnant and left me finish out my pregnancy not knowing if he was going to stay with me or leave me. (He ended up staying)
The 20 year old girl. Has verbally abused me in front of my children and my Father and Step Mother. She has also stolen from me, And I have caught her having sex in my home with my children, Father and Step Mother in my home. She was in a halfway house for 6 months for felony theft. But my husband keeps bringing her into my home and around my children.
When My daughter Christy was 3 weeks old. Greg picked her up from my Mom's because I went to a bar. He took off with her for over 24 hours. He told me that I would never see her again. I could not get the police or the courts to help me because he was the father. At that point I did what I had to do to get him back into the home with Christy.
Things have only gotten worse sense then. He treats my 2 boys that live with us different then Christy, His adult kids and his Granddaughter. It is like pulling a tooth to get him to so much as give my 15 year old (Tim) lunch money.
If Tim needs something for school like supplies, clothes ect. He is told that we do not have the money and that he needs to ask his Dad. Now my ex husband is not my favorite person in the world. But he does his kids right and is a good Dad. He pays his child support and I get it on time. (But Greg takes that) He also helps buy extra things like some school clothes and shoes and soccer shoes. My Mom bought Tim's other school clothes. Because Greg said we didn't have the money. But when his 20 year old daughter (Misty) needs money we have it to hand to her. We pay his 18 year old sons (Brad) cell phone bill and his is in the Army. We pay his 22 year old sons (Adam) car insurance and he is also in the Army.
I have had to write bad checks for groceries and gas for me to get to work. And I am working 2 part time jobs right now. with my jobs and child support I bring a little over $672.00 a month into this house and I never see a dime of it. Which means my kids don't either. Greg gets his pay check and I never see any of that either. If I need some money and ask him for it. I have to tell him what I need it for right down to the penny. Then I get dirty looks. Last week I had to beg for $6.00. $3.00 for Tim's lunch money and $3.00 for me to buy a pack of cigarettes.
He tells people that I don't work and that I doing nothing at home. Just to make me look bad in front of them. One day a guy he works with stopped at our house and actually asked me if I had a job yet. I was dumb founded. I have always had 2 if not 3 jobs sense I met Greg.
He tells me that I am fat and that he will leave me if I don't loose weight. One night I went down stairs and got 8 ritz crackers and 2 pieces of cheese and he told me that I should not be eating that because it would go straight to my ass. It doesn't matter to him that I starve myself to loose weight. I live on coffee, pepsi, and cigarettes, An maybe have a little snack in the evening.
I have a real good friend that I have known sense I was little. He has told me that the kids and I can stay with him and he will pay for my attorney if I ever decide that I want to leave.
I want to leave. I am unhappy and I know my boys are unhappy. And I am afraid that he is going to ruin my daughter like he did his kids. Misty and Brad were in trouble all the time and in and out of juvional detention.
Greg makes it very clear that if I am not happy that I can go at any time but I will do so without Christy. And that in the court system it is not what is in the best interest of the child but who has more money and the better attorney.
I am so scared to leave. I am afraid that I will not get custody of Christy. And I could not live with that. After all the courts gave him custody of his other 3 kids and look at how they turned out.
I don't know what to do any more.
