My life has been filled with physical,verbal and sexual abuse, rape, sexual harrasment, clinical depression and a schizophrenic episode. I self harm everyday and have been on anti-depressants for the last 5 years. My life isn't worth living, im hurt, so hurt. Im tired. I just want to die. Im going to. I just need a day and a plan. Something i havnt tried before. I can't get out of bed in the morning, and I cant stay out of it through the day or night. Eating isnt important anymore. I have no energy to eat.
I have flashbacks. Im on medication for panic attacks.
That is the basis of everything. Its depression that has taken over my life completely though. I just cant cope anymore. I've been in hospital, had therapy, psychotherapy and so many other forms of help. I've tried so hard to be well, but im so tired.