LILI

Heh, damn i tought i was the only one, the other day i tought to myself, "maybe if i just stay here, like will pass by fast and then all this sh%t will end", if my grandma was right, i will go to heaven where i will be happily everafter, not having to ask why why why why!!. Little things can make you happy for little time, movies do it for me, something new, dont get to excited, it doesnt work for that long. Right now a little piece of me is happy cuz im apparently going to spain, once that is over i guess my new little pieve of happiness is that im starting school and learning something, when that is over my little piece of happiness will be x-mas. And as for today, my little piece of happiness is that when i get to work, im gonna walk to the store next door, and buy one of those spanish cake-thingies with some spanish soda-thingie....and yep, thatd be the highlight of the day. So as much as it sucks for you buddy , it sucks the same and even twice sometimes for everybody else. Lets just hope this crap is over soon .

Well, my problem is that ive been with my boyfriend for about a year and 4 months, and i love him and well he loves me too. The big problem is that he is 19 and im to be 20 next month, and well he is still curious. He looks at girls and well all that kind of stuff, and im jelaous and it angries me. On top of all, he is starting to exercise and lose weight dieting, and i know why, because he wants to be noticed by other girls. I know this for a fact because once he broke up with me and he said "Everytime i run i wanna lose weight so all those girls want me and i can tell them no because im with you", well, im afraid once they do notice him he is not gonna say no. He works an hour and a half away form here, and he lives there for now, we see each other on the weekends, and sometimes he stays here, but now hes gonna have to work a lot because he needs money at least for the next 2 months before we star school. I tell him i think he is ok the way he is, and seriously i do, i dont think he needs to lose anything, bus he says that i should respect his desicion. Well, im just worried, because weve had conversations, and he is very attracted to other women, he loves me, but he still likes other people, he likes to look a lot. Sometimes even when hes with me. About 2 months ago we were going to break up because he was going to move (an hour away) and i wanted a long distance relationship but he didnt, and after crying and crying he decided he wanted to stay and study for another semester down here cuz it is a better school. He still calls me a lot, and we are good together, but sometimes i feel as if he wished he had something different, i think he wishes he was single again, and he could flirt and have fun with different girls. My question is how do i get him intereted in me again?? Like before... he used to love me a lot. I screwed up by being really jelaous, but he has friend so far away from here i dont know what he does. I dont know if i should start getting away a little and not calling him and not doing so many things for him. I mean i do a lot for him, i paid $400 to go meet his dad in Ohio, i go visit him all the time at his house no matter how far it is, and everytime we dont get to see each other im the one whos sad, but he doesnt give a sh%t, at least thats how it feels. How do i make him know that he could lose me, and that im not gonna be here forever, i wish i could just make him want me like before. If anybody has any advice please post. Also, i wanna know why men always have to look at other women like that, sexually?, does it happen to all men?, no matter how beautiful their girl is, they always wanna look and stare, one guy said "it doesnt have to be better, it has to be different", well it this is true, how come its not the same for women?? or for me?? im perfectly fine with staying with him for the rest of my life, even though i know im only 19, i dont need anybody else....why does he make me feel like he eventually will?? HELP!!!!

Trust me, if you stay in the dark like a little weirdo dude, staring at her and wishing you could talk to her, one day shes gonna turn around and ask you if your stalking her!!, so go talk to her, like i said, be like "damn chick, yo soooooooo fineeeee!!" No no, in second thought, maybe what the guy up there said is better, but dont put so much thought into it in case she says no cuz shes and uptight biaaaatch or something, but im pretty sure shes gonna say yes , as long as you approach her you will now what 2 do.

Hey, hehe, well i could tell you to just ask her out, you know, talk to her and make friends with her first, if you already are, DO NOT TRY TO IMPRESS HER, it always fails trust me, just be yourself, be like "Man i really wanna watch spiderman!! it looks sweet as hell" Shy hot chick: "oh yeah yeah, uhh it looks nice" you: "well im thinking imma go see it this sat, do think you wanna come" Shy hot chick: "OH!!!! Offcourse, you are such an attractive hot man, aww back to life i will be delighted!!" ....later on at nite she will give you a kiss and you will go like this . hehe good luck, and i thinkg YOU ARE THE SHY ONE MISTER.

Im sorry this is happening to you, but im going thrw something similar, we dont have a long distance relationship but he leaves a lot, we see each other a lot too, but thats because i try, he told me he needed some space to be with his friend and stuff, and i left all my friends for him so i have noone to hang out with. Ive been thinking and thinking, and ive talked to half the people i work with, and ive come to realize that you cant give it all, i bet you feel the same way i do, i think about him all the time, when hes not around i dont lift a finger to make myself better, and i with i could be with him all the time, is it that bad for you??, well it is for me, if you have been with this guy for 4 years and he is doing this right now, it doesnt mean he doesnt love you (it could not mean he doesnt love you), i think the best thing for you anyways i try and little by little separate yourself from him, i know this is hell from personal experience, it hurts a lot, and i hope you have friends to be there for you, the best you can do is concentrate in your work or career, and find areas of interest, and try to forget about him, not pay so much attention to him, that way , if he never comes back to his senses, you are already starting to try and get over him, and if he comes back you are gonna know if this guy is really worth it, dont be afraid of meeting new people, just try to separate yourself a little from him, but talk to him first, and tell him he doesnt know what hes losing, oh, and dont beg, ive lowered myself several times to that, heh, calling him and him telling me he doesnt really wanna talk to me right now cuz hes doing something, well, guys dont like it when you are too in love, only peter parker (spiderman) =) , hes the man, send me a message if you need a friend or something, but dont look down, many ppl go threw this bullshit world everyday, and they survive, so just cheer up.

Well, i almost broke up with my boyfriend who ive been dating for a year and a half two months ago because he had to leave, and now hes staying. This last month was awesome cuz i met his dad , we went to ohio and he told me he could spend the rest of his life with me, but now, we came back to our houses, and he said that he needed "alone time", with his best friend, mind you, he lives with his friend, my question is, how do i keep him interested, not bored, i mean, i lost all my friends because i love beng with him, but right now, the last thing he wants to know about is me, its like hes had enough off me, =( i try to help him but he wont talk to me, i wish i could be like his best friend =( , but the thing is that, just 2 weeks ago when i was up there with him, he loved me so much, and it was perfect, what happened??? , he says thati bitch a lot, and that he feels obligated to be with me all the time, and when not with me, on the phone...why does he need space?? god!! i feel like some pathetic stalker, he loves me , but i want to have what i had with him, and i dont know how to stop thinking about him, i feel so sad, because i love him, hes everything to me, =( , what should i do??...should i leave him alone??, =(, i just wish i had somebody to talk to, cuz i left all my friends behind, and now i look back, and *puff, theyve all gone away, please help =(.