Why I have hard time to let go ?

Most, most people who find hard to move on were the "dumpee" (I don't really like the term) , but I have been feeling so bad and missing him all the time 7 months after I broke up with him.

I start to realize his tricks to keep me around without committing to me. Those good gestures he made were probably just his play, the constant cold treatment was his true color to me.

Why I still remember all the places we went around the city, details he talked about his sister, the cruise he planned to go with me in a few years (he had no plan for NOW) ???

I'm mad of myself, why I can't move on , why I still wonder what the life would be like with him, why I suffer so much even after I chose to end being ignored any more. :/

7 months isn't that long. Often it takes over a year to finally feel urself. Don't worry, things will get better I promise you. I'm living proof lol.

If you really cant move on from this, get some counselling to gain perspective and learn how to let go. Life's too short to pine after someone you are not with anymore.