Advice on why my boyfriend disrespects me so much?

Hi,

I'm looking for some advice and don't dare talk to anyone I know in real life because I don't want to be judged.

My boyfriend of 2 years has become increasingly disrespectful towards me. It started off with comments about my physical appearance and when I get upset it's revealed that it "was all just a joke."

He also makes a point of checking other girls out in public in front of me, letting me know when he finds a girl attractive, wether that be on the street, on TV, in a film etc. He also knows that I'm very insecure from a previous abusive relationship in which I was with a guy for years who cheated on me and for some reason he likes to wind me up on this subject saying he wants "an open relationship" (he is only joking but I don't find it funny) specially when I have been through the pain that cheating causes. Openly admits that he mastirbates to porn whenever he gets the chance when ever I'm not around. Generally I just feel rubbish about myself.

I want to just add that before me he's only had one failed relationship after another due to the girl always leaving, I believe he is very insecure, he is very looks focused he's had surgery on himself etc.

Another thing he does which I loathe is that because he has a better pad job than me he holds it against me that he pays for most stuff when we fight. I want to add just because he gets paid more does not mean he works harder, we work the same hours! He never believes me when I tell him I'm tired because I'm his opinion I'm not entitled to be because I sit at a desk all day.

He has got mental health issues (anxiety and such) which he is waiting for therapy for but I'm just wondering if anyone has any clue why he would act like this?

I don't think it's because he wants me to leave because he bought us a house which is what he wanted, I'm pregnant with our first child which is also what he wanted and asked for and the baby is very much wanted.

I really want to believe that he has deep rooted insecurities so much so he acts this way, or is he just being horrible because he can?

It's killing me, the disrespect, the checking out other girls, the porn, the name calling. I just feel really alone.

This guy doesn't sound like a good person

often times insecure people tear down others in an attempt to feel better about themselves.

In a relationship a sick way of ensuring someone will never leave them is to tear down their self esteem.

It similar to having a bird with a broken wing so it won't fly away.

You mentioned being in an abusive relationship previously. I know you are expecting a baby but this guy is bad news.

You should consider therapy and leaving this guy and trying to figure out what it is about this dynamic you keep finding yourself a part of.