Ozone

We both love each other very much. But like I was saying It is my first committment. And I do and will continue to love minute I am with her. Thx for the kind words guys. We are already engaged. We feel it. We know that we're supposeed to be together.

Ive been in love with my best friend since I was 7 or 8 years old. I know that sounds young but im 20 now and the feelings are just as strong as ever. I spent many of those years with the words on the tip of my tongue. Wanting to tell her how I really felt. And that when I said I love you. I meant it. It was really hard for me. I just couldn't tell her, I was afraid. Afraid that things would change or be weird. But I continued to love her more than anything I would seriously die for her if I had to. Then one night some weeks back, we were hanging out like always. But she was acting a little different. And pretty much before I knew what was up she pulled me close and told me exactly what I had always wanted to say to her!: That she loved me, had always loved me, and she wanted to be with me. Then we kissed and it was the most amazing moment of my life. It really came out of nowhere and I can say that I am the happiest I have ever been in my life period. But I am a little nervous because this is my first serious relationship ever. It feels great tho because I am so comfortable with her and I can be myself. I mean like I swear we can read each others minds sometimes. I guess thats just becasuse we know each other so well. Still you guys got any advice that might be helpful for me?

The idea of finding my soulmate, getting serious or married, and hopefully having a child or two is like one of the very few things that keep me going in a life that I feel like I am failing. Ive never been in a serious relationship but I very ready to try. I just havent found anyone yet. I dont think I will ever be complete until I find someone.

I usually keep my eyes closed. But I like to peek once in a while.

I like shy girls.

Once upon a time there were two kids a boy and a girl who grew up and went to school together. They were quite close trusting each other like no one else. They knew they could always talk. As their adolescent years went by the guy fell madly in love with the girl and he kept it to himself. Mainly because he was afraid of a lot of different things that we don't have time for tonight. The guy never had girlfriends and the girl had several. Though madly jealous he was able to hide his emotions and keep his friend. Because he somehow always knew she would be his one day. Before high school the boy was forced to move several hours away. Fast forward to 5 years later Though they have only seen each other a few times a year they often talked on the phone and generally kept in touch. The girl "fell in love" and a child was brought into the worlld. He thought he had lost her forever. until her boyfriend became a heavy drug user and abusive toward her and their child. All this time her friend was with her only by phone or i m but there none the less. She grew very depressed and this was slowly killing the guy. She said she wanted to leave the place she lived and start over somewhere. The guy eventually broke down and confessed his feelings and to his great surprise she said she loved him to and wanted to come be with him. His heart filled with a joy unimagineable. However during she conversation which was an i m one she became upset about what her so called bf would do and she said I love you and logged off. A couple of calls have been made and there has been no response. What do you think?

Thats beautiful.

This is a song im planning on sharing with a band I may be joining. I would like some feedback on it before I put it out on the table. Critisism and comments welcome. Sometimes I lie and wonder Wonder where you are No your not here But your never very far I shut my eyes and dream Dream of the days When you were still my girl Before you gave yourself away Those days are gone forever And your so lost to me I'll hold you tight tonight But only in my dreams What we are is What we'll never be It was real But it doesn't matter To me Loving Gazes Hesitation Lonley Nights Imagination Thats all All that I have now I picture all the moments Moments in my head That we should have spent together But we were miles apart instead I'll never forgive myself For leaving you there We could have had a future A lifetime of love to share So I think that I'll stay here Alone in my bed Thinking of your beautiful smile And things I should have said C/W A. Curtis 2005

Because I was afraid.

Will the doctor laugh at me when he sees how patheic I am?

Just a bump. I would like to get some more comments.

Well music is my passion. And I try to get my mind of things by working on lyrics and music. But the songs I write are about how I feel and and just makes me feel ever worse sometimes.

thx

Any advice would be greatly appreciate. I suffer from this terrible emptiness inside. "The void" as I call it. I've been trying to deal with it but idk I just can't. I've turned to drugs to help fill this void and I guess they help some but im just damaging my body. I feel so worthless because I cant stop using drugs even if I want to. I think what I really need in life is someone to love me, someone I can open up to. Someone who can help me but I just dont see that happening though im far from an acctractive person and I have accepted this and it really doesnt bother me anymore. I mean none of my friends really really know me. I have never came out and opened myself up to anyone. But I am very caring there have been 2 girls in my life that I would have done absolutely anything for. I still would actually. But i never told either of them how I felt. Any advice on how to deal with the void? Im just so empty inside.

I have never said it.