Ahhhhhhhhhhh

[NKP]

Well mental health thats free, and as long as you dont say you are still cutting just say you use to (or they will tell the rents). So if you dont say your harming yourself they cant tell your rents nothing

[AnotherBrokenDoll]

No i'm not seeing anyone else, damn i wish that message hadn't had swearing in it. I needed to get that out. Gahhh. Oh well my own fault. Things have been even harder the last few days... Went to xmas carols and i wish i hadn't it totally mixed me up, cuz it was at my dads church. The whole time i was scanning around looking for someone i had no idea what they looked like. Why do i do that to myself. He abandoned me, he doesn't care. I should know that by now. But i torment myself with the maybes and the what ifs... Its stupid he lives 5 mins away theres nothing stopping him anymore... So i should give up, but i can't!

[NKP]

Just smile, if you smile the brain thinks your happy and you start to feel happy, or laugh and same thing. (okay well i got told this by my old counselia) I know it sounds crazy but it spose to work iv heard

[AnotherBrokenDoll]

I heard that to... Its weird though cuz im normally always smiling, i can make a smile easy. Anything to make others not worry. No one does anymore. Cept Sally Mike and Katie.... They aren't ment to worry. I don't want them to..