NKP Posted October 25, 2006 Share Posted October 25, 2006 Everytime i cry I am crying for you daddy Your watching over me Watching me make mistake after mistake But you catch me befor i fall into pieces Lost was what you were Hope is what you didnt have Murder is what you did to yourself I cried but i never died I hold on and had hope But i know your never coming back But aleast part of you is with me Your blood running inside of me, your eyes, your nose I just want to let you know daddy That i dont hate you for what you did I really do miss you though You missed out on me growing into a woman Missed out on my brother growing into a young man Missed out on seeing my nephew grow up You missed out on seeing the person i love I remember that you would always make me happy You didnt like to see me frown Half the time you would act like a clown to make me happy But when ever you were around me i was happy I was lucky to have you as a father We had our fights We had our fun We had our sad moments But nothing hurt more than those words my mother said "your father is gone, he passed away" I didnt know at first the real reason how you died A few weeks later my mother sat me down And said "Your father didnt die how i said, he hanged himself, i am so sorry" I just broke down into tears, i will for ever remember those moments Sometimes I would blame myself I would hate you I would blame everyone else But now i understand and it wasnt anyones fault Monday is your birthday It will be sad of course But most of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY daddy Link to comment
ForAnother Posted October 25, 2006 Share Posted October 25, 2006 Powerful. Keep to your thoughts, they will make you stronger. In the years to come, the poems you've written, you will look back on and be able to complete this chapter of feelings, and learn to deal with them... and not let them haunt you into your future. I am by no means saying you will stop crying, but you will cry, and then think, and remember the patterns of your mind and the reality of the situation, come back down to earth and fight all the pain much easier. -ForAnother Link to comment
NKP Posted October 25, 2006 Author Share Posted October 25, 2006 Powerful. Keep to your thoughts, they will make you stronger. In the years to come, the poems you've written, you will look back on and be able to complete this chapter of feelings, and learn to deal with them... and not let them haunt you into your future. -ForAnother Yeah i know, for once in my life, i feel good about myself, and dont think about death anymore or harming myself anymore, i am really happy about myself Link to comment
ForAnother Posted October 27, 2006 Share Posted October 27, 2006 Great to hear. I remember when I came to that realization. It didn't happen until I was 18. I always have been a slow learner -ForAnother Link to comment
Juliana Posted October 28, 2006 Share Posted October 28, 2006 This is a great poem. I didn't know my father growing up, and this poem about losing that relationship really touched me. I envy you. Link to comment
itsallgrand Posted October 29, 2006 Share Posted October 29, 2006 That is very beautiful. It cut me to the quick. Especially the ending. He would be proud. I'm proud of you and I only barely know you. Way to go, hun, and I mean that. Link to comment
SkylinesTurnstiles Posted October 29, 2006 Share Posted October 29, 2006 hey hun I really like it.Its so deep and meaning full keep it up Link to comment
coollady1957 Posted October 30, 2006 Share Posted October 30, 2006 That was a very touching poem. Brought some tears to my eyes. I am sorry you have had to endure such heartache. Link to comment
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