Caldus Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 Oh my God it's happening again. All I have to say is that I am really pissed off at a friend right now, but more than anything I feel so dominated and walked all over it's not even funny. I feel like I am about to explode, seriously. I don't even know to begin describing how I am feeling except that it involves butterflies in my stomach, anger, anxiety, feeling of being overwhelmed, and all of these other sensations. The sensations are incredibly strong and I can barely control myself right now. I think I am going to break down... Link to comment
Caldus Posted May 4, 2006 Author Share Posted May 4, 2006 I got put down again as soon as I decided to start being more open and vulnerable to people. It's like I can't be myself with anyone without them trying to put me down at some point. It keeps happening over and over even with new friends I make. I feel like I am with my old friends again. The sensations are so high right now. I don't even know how to describe it. I really don't. Link to comment
mmmending Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 put down? or did you feel judged and scrutinized?.. feel your "worth" being measured and evaluated? Link to comment
the yang to the worlds yin Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 I think it's probably one of those put down sort of things. Link to comment
Caldus Posted May 4, 2006 Author Share Posted May 4, 2006 Basically the insult had to do with me not ever having a woman before. It's not true but basically I took it as an insult still. Long story. Link to comment
itsallgrand Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 How ya doing now? You know it was rude and kind of mean of them to poke at a soft spot of yours. That ain't right. It's easy to get upset when someone does that, especially a friend. I hope you've calmed down some. Remember: what they said does not say anything bad about you, but about them....so don't feel bad for long! Isn't worth it! Link to comment
Caldus Posted May 4, 2006 Author Share Posted May 4, 2006 What I am more concerned with is that I just can't seem to be myself and open with people without getting hurt in the process. Link to comment
the yang to the worlds yin Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 Doesn't everyone feel that way in life though? You've seen how so many people would rather try and be part of society's culture rather than fight it, for fear of being left out or unlikeable. Link to comment
darkblue Posted May 5, 2006 Share Posted May 5, 2006 It is normal to feel a wealth of bitter emotions when you have been stung. Remember and keep this in perspective, Cal - not everyone will treat you like that. Link to comment
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