kiki12 Posted March 11, 2018 Share Posted March 11, 2018 my boyfriend and I have been in a relationship for 5 years now. I'm 26, he's 27. We met when we were both in University and we hit it off instantly. We started living together within a few months of starting our relationship and have been living together ever since. From the minute we met I knew we were meant to be. He is always sweet, thoughtful, kind, generous, loving, supportive (the list goes on). He is everything I've ever dreamed of; he's my partner in life and my best friend. We've talked about our future together: kids, house, etc. We have a dog together. We share pretty much everything in life. The thought of being with him for the rest of my life felt more right than anything I'd ever known, and up until recently I didn't question it for a second. I was accepted to a post-grad program halfway across the world from him - an opportunity of a lifetime - and it's been two months so far that we've been apart. He was always incredibly supportive of me attending this program and never made me feel bad or guilty for choosing to move halfway across the world for a year (the duration of my program). He knew how much it meant to me to attend this program. He thought of coming with me for the year but did not want to risk losing his job which he had worked so hard for. Before I left, we decided to stay together; it was a no-brainer. We couldn't imagine life without each other, and even though I'd be far away, we knew we could make it work. He had planned to come visit in halfway through the year and again for my graduation. Everything seemed like it would work out. I knew it would be hard being away from him for many reasons. We lived with each other back home, and so we were spending every minute with each other when we weren't at work. We've had some long-distance experience throughout our relationship as he moves around a lot for work, so sometimes we would go months without seeing each other. He is my best friend. I knew that it would take time to adjust to the absence of him, especially in a physical sense. I've really started missing him in a sexual way but also just missed having any physical contact in general ie. hugs, cuddles, etc. These last couple of weeks have been increasingly difficult. This is where I need advice... my boyfriend has never done anything to make me doubt him. He has always been faithful and trustworthy 100%. But it's like with this distance between us, I'm starting to doubt my previous beliefs that we were meant to be together forever... I met a guy at a party recently and we really seemed to hit it off. I have butterflies when I think about him and we've been texting and making plans to hang out. I haven't had feelings like that about someone since the first time I met my current boyfriend. I realize that I could be just excited about the fact that someone is paying attention to me and Ive been deprived of male attention like that for a couple of months now... and Im not saying that I think this new guy is the one I'm meant to be with for the rest of my life... but I feel that this absence between me and my boyfriend has given me space and time to think and what if we aren't meant to be? part of me wants to take a break with my boyfriend just to figure some things out but I don't want to hurt him. I know he would be so confused and hurt because he hasn't done anything wrong and is just the sweetest human being but I don't know what to do. It's scary to think of my life without him because we've been together for 5 years, but part of me now is wondering if ???? is it selfish of me to want a break to see how I truly feel??? is there anyone out there who has had similar experiences!? I would really appreciate hearing your story... I'm feeling very alone and confused about my feelings and would love any advice anyone has to share. please help Link to comment
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