Diszconected12 Posted November 10, 2017 Share Posted November 10, 2017 I really need advice on what to do next... I'll start from the beginning, Me and my now ex were together for nearly two years, our relationship was perfect had minor arguments until my depression and anxiety started plummeting.. my ex didn't know how to deal with it because he didn't understand and thought it was him and me not being attracted to him anymore which wasn't true... this made me feel bad in myself and started to cause problems for where I was searching to lean on other people who happened to be boys, who he thought I fancied which wasn't true. Start of this year We had fights that were really making me question if I could take this anymore until one of our fights went to far and he restrained me under water and made marks on my face. After this happened he was begging for me back and promising he'd never hurt me again and not to tell anyone, you could imagine how confused and alone I felt.. 2 months went by of me feeling suicidle questioning if we could make this work breaking up the getting back together after him begging for me... I do love him but I was just so scared- I ended it completely telling him I didn't love him anymore, I did love him but I just didn't know how to deal with it all.. I blocked him off everything leaving him without any explanation which I regret too this day. I couldn't handle life so I moved to Greece for 3 months to do a summer season... I was living single life slept with other people he found out what I had been doing and was even more heartbroken- I was told he wanted to take his own life because he felt so betrayed which I understand what I did was wrong... I have never hated myself so much for how I left it but I just couldn't take it anymore and I wanted to get away.... when I came back home I saw him and he was destroyed, so angry and upset which I feel incredibly bad for as I do still love him. We both still love eachother and want a future together, when we are together even after everything that happened it's perfect I feel home and happy with life, but is it possible for us especially him to get over the hurt and distrust? Please give me some advice. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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