Elavohra Posted November 2, 2017 Share Posted November 2, 2017 I know I have been singing the same song. But still I have totally broken and shattered now. I don't see any future anymore! Since breaking up I am unable to accept myself, I hate myself for all the wrongs I did while in the relationship (nothing major though- like crying, not listening to him, arguments on small little things, obsession to talk to him and missing him, showed him how stressed I was because I wasn't able to clear any exam to have a better job) and was being dumped because of these negative qualities of mine. It hurts that I had hurt him. Although I myself is still hurting (its been 6months now). Which hits me hard that I am not a quality person. I feel terrible (in waves) whenever he crosses my mind. Another major thing is: I have been failing in all the competitive exams since the beginning of the year. I have given ten plus exams and have not passed in a single one. Which makes me again a non quality person. I am not even good health wise as well. Fatty waist, fatty mantastic arms, fatty neck but slim and attractive legs. I am already 25 years old with nothing about myself. I feel so worthless, I feel as if I don't deserve even smiling or laughing. Break up makes me feel I am fit for nothing. I know it sounds like beating myself again and again. But trust me guys this is what I have been going through. This how I am feeling. I have no zeal left for anything. The fact is I guess I am horrific, horrid person- a "NINCOMPOOP" Don't know when I'll begin to feel better myself? I don't know when he'll stop crossing my mind? I don't know when I'll accept that those mistakes were human nature? Don't know when I'll accept that I never wanted to hurt him, but it just happened, it just happened unintentionally? Link to comment
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