jchilds24861 Posted September 10, 2017 Share Posted September 10, 2017 Ive been coming to this site for what seems like an eternity.. Yet in reality only 6 weeks have transpired. I've gazed at many of posts trying to piece the puzzle together, yet I always feel like I'm missing that dreaded last piece. Six weeks ago my gf (24) of 9 months left me(29).. It was brutal.. The emotional scarring felt deep.. Rewind 9 months.. We fell fast.. hard.. It was a concoction of love... lust.. bad decisions and smiles. I was the methodical, analytical, routine and witty but sarcastic of the two. She held the spontaneity..the spark.. charisma and charm, one of the most driven women I know. We both worked.. running the rat race as most do. We decided to move in together after only dating for 3 months, quick I know.. But it felt right. We had settled for a cozy apartment.. Bills were divided as a 75/25, I took on a majority of the expenses because of the wage gap between us. Over the course of the next 6 months we furnished and made this rented out property a place to call "home". Then with a swift exit the home i once called became a hollow shell of it's former self. The reasons that were given were understandable. I was told that I had a gambling addiction.. I was just another romantically involved addict. An individual that said he would cut the gambling back but didnt (I own up to this 100%)That living paycheck to paycheck was unacceptable and she deserved more. Maybe she was right.. But bills were always paid and never late. We had multiple monthly date nights.. She is living the vanlife now.. Quitting her job and leaving all behind..trekking through uncharted waters with another man. A man that she had been at the bar with drinking a few nights before the breakup. Main reason for this post.. I've been questioning reality as of late. Is the 9-5 day in.. Day out grind for a place to call home worth it? The monotonous cycle is really.. Deep down to the core worth it? Link to comment
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