Tali Posted November 27, 2011 Share Posted November 27, 2011 My boyfriend and I have been together a little over a year. We're in a long distance relationship, but that's never been much of an obstacle for us. We're deeply in love, and the distance between us has never gotten in the way of that. My boyfriend recently admitted himself into rehab for alcoholism. When he called and told me he had become an alcoholic, I was surprised. I knew that he drank regularly, but it was rather rare for me to hear him drunk. Also, he's quite mellow and laidback when intoxicated, so I never realized his drinking had become a problem. However, he admitted to me that he had developed a dependency for booze and that he was unsatisfied with the way he was currently living. I was actually very proud of him for facing his problems and seeking help. I let him know that I supported him entirely. But as time has gone on, I've found myself feeling angry and even somewhat resentful of my boyfriend. I've had life knock me down a few times. Some days, it takes every ounce of courage I have just to make it through the day. My boyfriend is one of the only people that makes my life feel worth the living. He keeps my spirits high and helps me feel sane. I'm angry at him for letting his drinking get to this point. Without him, I virtually have no support system. He's left me to deal with all of my problems on my own. Having such little contact with him for so long has really broken me down. My hair is falling out, I can't sleep. I feel entirely alone in the world. All because he wouldn't control his drinking. I feel like all of this could have been avoided if he had just stayed responsible. He'll be checking out of rehab in a week, which of course, I'm very grateful for. But I'm worried that these feelings of anger towards him will linger. I've kept my thoughts about this bottled up for so long that I just don't know what to do with them. I don't really feel like I can talk to him about this...he's very sensitive, and I can't imagine a how conversation about my bitterness towards him would turn out positive. Plus, I want to remain as supportive as possible, and I don't want to stress him out in the early stages of his recovery. So...advice? Any would be appreciated...I'm really at a loss. Thanks. Link to comment
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