rambohearts Posted September 30, 2011 Share Posted September 30, 2011 for many years on and off, i've felt so low. i've come to realise that this is depression and i've finally gone to the doctors about it. i find that i feel very negative about myself, i dont see how people can like/love me, cos i feel so low about myself. sometimes i get so worked up and i just want to hurt myself but luckily i've not let it get that far. . . i've been given some pills and now i'm scared. the common side effects will be feeling sick, sleepiness or not being able to sleep, theres a lot of possible effects. i'm scared of people knowing, cos then i'll feel like i'm being stared at. i dont want anyone at work to know, cos i work with 8 girls and i dont want to be treated differently, i just want to be left alone, they stress me out enough really. i think i find my worst problems come from my relationship, i'm so jealous that this is usually what i will get worked up about, me being stupid, or not getting enough attention or affection from him . . we have sex once a month IF i'm lucky . . and i have to ask for it . . he has no passion and i feel like i have to ask or make the 1st moves all the time . . i just dont know what to do, i dont know what will clear up if the pills work, i dont know how to deal with these issues with him if they dont get better, i feel so unloved, i try to ask him what he likes about the relationship and he just has nothing to say . . so how can i believe that hes happy with me, if he can't back it up? please someone direct me, stuff with him, and someone that knows well about depression, i'm so scared about starting these pills, all i know is that there may be side affects, i'll need to be on them for 6 months, and it might never go away . . . i just want to rest my mind but i have too many thoughts . . . x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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