RockyRaccoon Posted June 5, 2010 Share Posted June 5, 2010 Little backstory since it's been a while since i've said anything. Ex broke up with me in January, I decided to go NC in late February hoping we could eventually be friends. She and my best friend start seeing each other a few weeks later, he tells me sometime in March. I sent her a text telling her never to speak to me again, and haven't spoken to her since. I live with the guy so we've exchanged maybe 10 words since then, but i'm moving out July 31 when my lease is up. Last night, she was hanging out at a few friends of mine's place and they invited me over. I didn't know she was there or i wouldn't have gone. I get there and i see she's there, but i decide to stay anyway because i'm tired of not getting to hang out with my friends because of her. Up to this point, i've been pretty sure i've been moving on a lot, and last night proved it. When we first broke up and we were at the same place, she'd be the one talking to people and having fun, and i'd just be sitting there quietly trying not to get upset. Last night, it seemed like the exact opposite. It didn't bother me that she was there. I was having a great time and talking a lot in the group, and i doubt she said more than a sentence. Anyway, so i get up this morning and check my email, and i've got an email from her. "******, It was nice to see you last night. I know you told me to never talk to you again and if you still feel that way then I will respect your wishes from now on. I am forever sorry for hurting you. Please know that I never meant to hurt you in any way and I cant even begin to tell you how horrible I feel because of it. I hope that eventually you can forgive me and we can work towards being friends. Like I said, it was very nice to see you last night. *******" I'll start by saying there's no chance i'll ever get back together with her. I hadn't actually given being friends with her much thought, but i might eventually be able to be friends with her. I've forgiven her for what she did, my friend is the one i haven't been able to forgive yet. Either way, i still need more time and space for whatever happens. I was thinking of writing something like this back. "******(her), We might eventually be able to be friends, but not now. I still need time and space. ******(me)" Just something to tell her that i don't completely despise her anymore, but i'm not ready. I'm going to sit on this and make sure it's really what i want to do, but in the meantime, any input or comments would be welcome. Link to comment
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