Maverick32x Posted May 2, 2010 Share Posted May 2, 2010 So, I can't handle my job anymore.... and its almost 100% because of this girl that I fell head over heals for, and cannot get over her! Its been hot and cold for awhile now.... shes officially 'done' with her ex-bf.. so she tells me... but mentioned that he was the one that basically didn't want to get back together with her.. so where does that leave me? I guess I'm second choice since shes been hanging out with me this whole weekend... which is weird in its own way I suppose? I stop talking to her... she runs for me.. I start talking to her.. she disappears like I'm diseased.... ridiculously predictable... But I've given it some thought and I really don't want to be second choice for some girl.... so I decided that I need to move onwards!! However, there are so many obstacles.. 1: I still really really like her.. so when she gets all touchy and flirty... I'm really into it because deep down inside I still have incredibly strong emotions for her.. though I do by best to suppress them... yet we ended up sleeping together last night.. but its slowly becoming less satisfying because I'm pretty sure she could give two * * * * s about me... but just wants to have sex.. which leaves me feeling pretty lousy by the time I wake up... 2: We work together. I see her everyday practically... and- we're carpooling to work together... We also now live about a 3 minute walk from each other as well, so our friendship is very convenient. 3: She occasionally will be seemingly interested in me.... which makes me second guess this whole 'moving on' thing... but she'll also tell me things like shes not 'ready for a relationship' (which she should just add "not ready for a relationship with you") So- my dilemma is that I've realized it is impossible to get over her... we're good friends which is the worst part, so its not like I can just 'stop talking to her' when we're at work... shes one of the few people that I do talk to!!! However, the whole wanting to be with her thing is really dragging on my emotions... so my solution thus far is to start looking for a new place of employment.. she was looking to find a new job earlier and I realized how wonderful that would be... Just to be able to forget about her.. write her off like it never happened would be amazing... Its just really hard to see someone you still have feelings for every single day.... Any thoughts/tips would be helpful as well also- I just moved far from work and it would be nice to have a job thats close too, so there are other perks besides just not being around her~ Link to comment
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