Hope you can bear with me on this one - need to get some feedback and just touch the basics of this mess.
The facts: I am a 50 year old female. I am still attractive, take care of myself, fairly well educated, good job, and a recovering alcoholic. Have been in a stormy relationship with another recovering alcoholic for 10 years, same age. He has, in the last month, now "moved on", living with a woman 10 years younger than me.
Here is what has me completely flabbergasted and I really hope I am not saying this just because I obviously really resent this chick, but she is a lush, a sleep-around and she is unattractive, no teeth, obvious ravages of drinking every night for 15 years. Put it this way, she LOOKS older than me.
If it had been somebody from AA or somebody he met at church maybe I could understand a little better. She drinks every night and, of course, he drinks with her, at least most of the time. His liver is shot, he has hep C, he is on methadone maintenance for pain, and drinking is going to kill him, LITERALLY. We come from a very small town and everybody else in town is just blown away too. He basically refused to work this out with me and, believe me, I TRIED, and instead went to her.
Add the rest of the story to the mix. My ex-husband was a worthless philanderer (he's in the penitentiary now), she is one of my ex-husband's ex- girlfriends, she has a child by my ex-husband.
Jiminy, what on earth is going through this man's mind!!! He and I have supposedly "broken up" several times in the past but he has never gone to another woman (as far as I knew, or thought. I'm starting to wonder now). Somewhere in my heart I think this new relationship is doomed (he drives her car over to come see me), etc., etc., but I also think I may be in denial and I need to roll with it and get over this heel. Then, on the other hand, I sometimes think that I would take him back in a heartbeat. We've been through a lot of tough times but we have had some good ones too.
Do you think he will come back to me? Any insight would be appreciated because I am one REALLY CONFUSED LADY!