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  1. LemonCheesecak
    Definitely does suck, I know the feeling. Especially on days when I have nothing to do and I know they're all doing stuff together. It's hard to take your mind off it when people are constantly flaunting it through persistent phonecalls/texts too. Actually, I was never like that with my ex. I always asked her to call me back when I was alone.
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    I feel bad, I always buy textbooks and then never use them unless I have a report to write and I'm desperate for references. So much wasted money.
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    Glad you liked! That was something new for me, usually I obsess over every single word and as a result writing can be a very slow, frustrating process. I just went with this it this time, and I'm not dissatisfied with the result.
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    Above book was alright I guess, quite a lot of positive messages but too light for me. Had it done in two nights. Reading Metropole by Ferenc Karinthy now.
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    Day 23 Just another day. She can go jump off a cliff.
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    As the title states, I just went with the flow on this one, no editing (apart from one section I really didn't like in typing it up). The reason I post it is because it's one of the most positive pieces I've written since dealing with a breakup 3 months ago and I take that as a good sign of healing. All roads point to infinity God never had a plan for me This compass is cracked, you can take it back I'm writing my own destiny I'm slowing down time So I can branch out the lines What's impossible? It's all possible I don't need to follow the signs These levées are breaking And this river's awaking Seeking out sea, or sky, space or more You are powerless to contain Something not preordained So just let it explore, always yearning for more Let it return, share the knowledge it's gained 'Cause all structure is shaking And the grounds are all breaking As dreams become sights, become sounds, become love
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    My only advice is throughout all your initial doubts and concerns, just stick with it! Things get easier and start to make a lot more sense. And if you feel like you're gonna break it, get on here and tell your problems. There's always some great reassurance and advice just a post away
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    Day 22 My self-esteem took a bit of a hit, was out with a few friends and one of them in particular seemed to distract all the attention of any nearby girls. Aside from that, good night and I didn't think about her once! Relaxing today, ordering a pizza, writing up some report work, and watching a film sounds like enough adventure for me.
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    Day 21 Holy crap I've made it 3 weeks. Fun night organised too, a couple of friends' birthday night out so I'm gonna see if I can up my game. Rustiness expected. Should be good fun anyhoo
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    Day 20 I'm fine. Got too many other things to worry about than a girl who didn't realise how good I was and could be for her.
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    Day 19 Good day, can't complain.
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    She just signed onto MSN for about half an hour, neither of us said a word. I deserve a beer for that one.
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    She just signed onto MSN for about half an hour, neither of us said a word. I deserve a beer for that one.
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    Brilliant brilliant brilliant book (cannot stress that enough), one of my all time faves. Read the "Inspiration..." thread in here and decided to pick up The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho to see if it uplifted me at all. Nice easy read, got 1/4 of the way through it in half an hour. Enjoyable though.
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    Day 18 Not pleased at the fact I feel resentment towards my ex coming through. I don't want to resent her, I still think she is one of the most wonderful people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting. Aside from that, alright day, just another one to chalk up I suppose.
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    Day 17 So-So. At least I have eyes for other girls now.
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    Day 16 Really good day, feel completely indifferent towards her existence. So much so I saw someone that looked like her, driving a car that looked like hers, with a guy in the passenger street and didn't double take. I actually skipped the rest of my way home But yeah, another up day. I could get used to these.
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    Day 15 Longest I've ever made it, and I feel like I'm regressing. It's getting really tough now. Not giving up though. I need this.
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    Day 13 As expected, today has been much easier so far. Her mum drove past me in town but thankfully didn't notice me. Couldn't have faced a conversation with her. Had a panic moment when a girl with similar clothing/build as my ex walked past my friend's living room window and I nearly freaked out. I just can't wait to be back in the city and less paranoid.
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    I'm an idiot, was on someones bebo page and my ex had posted a comment. She's apparently waiting on some texts that she "hasn't got yet" but told this person to "wait and see". That could mean anything but of course it got me a bit nervous. Further proof that social networking sites are a burden.
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    FriendnorFoe, I'm really sorry to hear what happened, but I admire you so much for not caving and keeping up the NC, it took a lot of courage and I just think you need to hear some praise for that. Hope everything works out alright, always remember there's someone around to talk to that isn't your ex.
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    It's an easy place to fall into, especially with friends. I've been trying to cut out alcohol completely for a while because I felt it was bringing me down and hindering me, but my friends insist its what I need to keep my mind off things and get back out there. They couldn't be more wrong. I had a chance a few nights ago but didn't get as far as chatting cos I realised I'd had too much and didn't wanna blow my first chance because I was too drunk. Day 12 Today was harder. Went shopping back in my hometown and although I haven't seen her (actually, I realised we haven't seen each other or even heard each others voice since middle of February!) I suppose the familiar sites of home kinda stirred up some bad feelings. Still getting by though, lots of questions filling my head about what my aspirations and reasons for life are, but this I see this as a good thing. Soul searching, if you will.
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    Day 11 Back home so I'm in pretty good spirits, homecooked meals and less responsibility always works a treat. It's good to have a change of scenery for a little while too. Haven't actually been around town yet so not had a chance to bump into her, will be going shopping tomorrow but I hope she doesn't have the same idea. I'm determined to avoid all strains of contact for 30 days.
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