Geno101

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i'd say it was immature, but i'd also have to say i dont know her like you do. And i'm sure a group of people downing her online wouldnt make you feel too good. but the thing i see is her finding someone doing the things you neglected. But its not your fault. Because of course, you didnt even know because she dindt bother making an effort of telling you. I would also say not to call her and ignore her calls but i know, everyday becomes harder without hearing her voice, just as it is for me. And i know if that name popped up on the Caller ID it would be hard to jsut ignore it as if your eyes dindt light up when you saw it. you cant lie to yourself. Thats all i can say. go with your feelings and dont just do something to be doing it. Dont ignore the call because it seems like its the best thing to do to her after what she's done to you. Just think before you answer, but be quick. or think before you make the call. but i would give you the go ahead not to be too mushy and TOO forgiving because what she did is disturbing and QUITE screwed up for the most part. i say you should talk to her if you feel its right, but you can not give in and throw your trust and feelings back on the line. you should make her work for her place back in your heart, you know what i mean? Exactly what type of an effort have you made in talking and changing this by the way? just out of curiosity.

Hi everyone, this is a long story, so get your pop corn.. alright. here's my love story. On October 15th, 2005, i met my BEST FRIEND'S girlfriend. i had talked to her once before but it was awkward and very short lived. We began talking everyday because she found me much different from the rest of his friends. We clicked. we had a WIDE amount of things in common. It would seem as if we were long lost relatives the way we were jsut alike. We began talking everydya by yahoo instant messenger. and I told myself, knowing the type of person i was, that i wasnt gonna like her. I was gonna purposely try not to like her. By this time i wasnt exactly BEST friends with my "Best friend" anymore. not because of her but because we're growing into two different people (we've been friends since 4th grade...9 years old)....By the end of november, she says she started falling in love with me. She once came out and said "i have something to tell you....I think i'm falling in like with you"...and i was on the other end of the screen feeling good, but feeling scared and worried about her just joking...so i hesitated and didnt respond right away. she finally said "SIKE! just kidding..you thoguth i was seirous didnt you?"...i laughed and we continued tlaking about whatever. I had begun feeling as if a void in my life was filled with this female presense in my life. It was something i had always wanted and had always subconsciously was mssing but, couldnt quite put my finger on it. So i began liking her. and she would call me from everywhere. she called me on thanks giving form her fmailies house, she would call me on her way home from school, she called me from her family's house on around christmas. And eventually, i broke the news to her. i did the same thing as her, except, i never said i was joking...I flat out told her...and we talked...and she eventually ended up telling me she wasnt joking when she told me about a month earlier. So we began talking religiously. finding SOOOO many things we had in common. Her love grew from loving me less than loving her boyfriend...to loving me equally and then more than him. she often times changes it up and says equal or goes back to syaing she loves me less but i'm not convinced that thats the truth. he often times treats her terrible and makes her mad and she even cries form being so frustrated being with him. but she stays. And this was killing me the entire time. She ended up having sex with him while me and her were in love....I took the first itme stoicly...as if i dindt care but inside i was dying...i thoguth it was gonna be a one time thing. This was in January...then in february around his birthday, they had sex again. then at the end of february she had sex with him again and kept it form me for two weeks. but her guilt drove her to telling me. (that showed me that she cares mroe about me because her guilt didnt allow her to keep it from me but she's keeping everyhitng from him with ease)....and then once again the day after HEr birthday, April 13th...that was the last time because THAT time, she heard absolute pain in my voice. i damn near cryed. Each time after the sex she said her demeanor completely changed, and her mood shifted downward because she felt bad for me. The reaosn those first couple times didnt make me too mad was because he is terrible at sex in the first place and he's a premature ejaculator. So i wasnt very HURT becaus ei knew she dindt enjoy it. And because i tried to take this punishment as an equalizer for falling in love with my best friend's girl. I took it as my own punishment. Being a man about it, somewhat. But the last time, i was mad simply because by the 3rd time, in the end of february, i was begging her not to do it again, but iwasnt exactly showing how much it hurts me. I just hinted around to not wanitng her to do it anymore. She said she "didnt know whether it would happen again or not"....she DID feel bad. She isnt a liar. Especially not to me. she really felt bad, but like me, she's VERY sexual. And she said that she only settles for him and she wants ME now. She's jsut settling. but the last time. I damn near cried. I had no mercy with my language and i eneded up making her cry by letting her know some things he hadnt told her that he told me. not to get back at her but i just did it on impulse and it ended up working. We talked for hours on in, she was cooperative with me. and she promised that it wouldnt happen again, because she didnt know before how much it hurts me. So she's gone two months without having sex with him, for me. because we do plan on getting married. Although we're young we're very mature with decisions and plans. We know what we want. its not puppy love. him and HER is puppy love. but yeah. he treats her like trash .Talks about her ample fat. she's not fat, she's just thick. Its like sexy thick, but he's the type of dude who likes skinny girls, so he downs her about that. he's tlaked about her hair. he's a joker but theres some truth behind his jokes. and thats funny because me and her bother have always hated the fact that he jokes so much. and his jokes hurt sometimes. i've experience that as a kid growing up with him and she knows from experience as well. Well anyway, recently she decided to just be friends with me because "guilt is eating her alive"...which is an understandable concept. but, my argument is, she's been putting me through hell. I havnt been able to receive what i've rightfully earned. I havnt been given what i have worked for. instead i have to watch someone who makes her feel miserable receive everyhting i should be getting. such as affeciton, sex, and respect, and appreciation. but i stuck with her anywya. I cant talk to other girls because i dont wanna hurt her. but i cant have her because i respect HIM. you see that rock and hard place? I'm right there with no choices. I'm jsut stuck. and even if i wanted to talk to other girls, my love wouldnt allow me. I'm too deep in it. but she says she thinks we should just be friends for now, until they break up, and she says she thinks that they wont last very long past highschool. (she's been saying that for 8 months now) and the graduation was TODAY. Now, we've been talking less, and i'm feeling miserable. She misses me too, but she doesnt show it back. i spend a lot of time sending emails and i just confess my heart and my feelings all day long because i cant restrain, or stand to keep them in. Its killing me not being able to have her in my ear constantly, hearing her voice. You know? but she just easily hides her feelings. She doesnt seem to be suffering like me... I dont understand why its possible for her to just LEAVE me. I couldnt do that with all my strength. I'm too in love. why does she go back to someone who treats her so bad and makes her cry at night , and leave me? She admits i'm WAYYY better for her and i make her feel 10 times better than he does. but she leaves ME (for now) to be with him. and i'm dying inside for it...how can i get my mind right? why am i suffering and why doesnt she seem to be suffering? how can i restrain from letting her know my emotions? its so hard.....please comment on any aspect of this story. I need insight from an outside source. because she wont speak her mind. She's very...secretive or shy when it comes to her thoughts and feelings.

I heard ffrom that old lady,. the sex expert with that disgusting show, that you're usually done growing at about 14. And i was disappointed when i heard that. lol. I was DETERMIND to prove her wrong, but everywhere i read, it said 14. I couldnt believe it. Then i heard somethign about thikcness growth comes later, But, I'm not seeing anything. Then i just read something about it growing two years after the male is down growing completely. So what am I looking at here? How much can i expect to grow in the next, say, 4 years (not the height of my body, I mean my length and thickness)

thats the thing, she actually keeps stressing to me it doesnt REALLY matter"...emphasize Really because that means she does in fact care a little but, but i cant help to think that maybe she's just sugar coating it for my feelings. But its mostly me who's so worried about it.

she's not a mean person. the way she did it was sort of unintentional. I was surprised because that didnt seem like something she would do. she said "5 inches is..............." and then she just paused. and i said "what?" and she said small....I acted unphased, but, I really took it to heart and now I'm sort of, hesistant to have sex with her now. I mean i wont hesistate in the act but I'm kidna worrying about he she'll react.

okay...heres the deal. I'm a virgin. I have never had sex. and i am in love with a girl who has had sex and she enjoyed it. That pisses me off alone, but the fact that she said his was 7 inches (2 inches longer than mines) automatically makes me think that I am not going to be able to satisfy her as much as him. Even though i Know the dude she has had sex with, and i know that i know WAYYY more about sex than him, I still cant help to think that I'm going to "fall short" of his favors (no pun intended, lol). I know more positions, more about the psycological aspect of sex, you know, all that stuff, but i just cant get over this. I'm jealous, and insecure. I got to reading, and I found that, During sex with a GIRL it actually gets even bigger. Is this only true in some cases or is it nastrually going to happen no matter what? I've heard people say that they have normally erected at about 5 and during intercourse they got to about 7, will i really be able to expect this? another thing, She said that 5 was small when i told her the size. It was a shot to the stomach for me. I'm really just posting this as an introduction because, this is my firs tpost here if you dindt already notice. I jsut wanan test out the community and see what peeople have to say, thanks for any POSITIVE reply.