I'm an average male of twenty years old. In my youth, I was friendly with a certain female, but always had feelings beyond that of friendship which she did not share - or even know about, for that matter.
We fell out of touch at circa age 17. Flash forward to friday night - I had sent her an IM, metaphorical to the natives offering a shell of kava for friendship - and next thing I know I somehow grew the testicular fortitude to take her to a concert on saturday night, at which I had an amazing time, and had come to realize that this childhood crush had grown into a glorious, remarkable, and fantastically stunning woman... and, in turn so had my affection for her.
A little on me: I was that tragically dorky kid in high school - fat, pimples, band geek, wit was wayyyyyy far advanced of that of my peers - and I caught grief for it. Lots of it. It's always affected my confidence - and still has a permanant mark to this day. I never got the girl. EVER... until a relationship I got into when I was 17, that tragically ended when I was early 19, and i thought I was in love. I haven't had any sort of relationship - let alone female contact - since.
Time lapse back to today - I'm slightly more confident, witty, and with a more suiting personality. I'm a small time film producer/director with a limited degree of acclaim, and am starting to love myself. i thought i had the women thing under control - I can be 'smooth', 'rough', 'charming', and all those other brad pitt adjectives - but... all that's doing me no good now.
I have a full blown, high school-esque crush, quickly in its evolution to infatuation - and I'm a clueless boy. My questions are similar to those of the age range of my crush. How can I tell if it's mutual? How can I let her know how I feel without facing my ultimate fear of rejection? What are the typical "signs"?
She lives on the northern tip of florida, and I on the southern, and she will only be in town for a couple days further - I would be divinely happy if something happened before she left... but.. this isn't a situation I can simply "make my move" in - For the first time in a while, I'm actually nervously and intimidated - and I have those amazing butterflies aflutter at the mere thought of her that I haven't felt in the longest time... What's a boy to do?
Much gratitude in advance...
Signed,
The Clueless Paradox.
