Blondey

Thankyou for replying to my post. Iv have taken all of your advice into consideration it does sound like a good idea to concentrate on the positeive things i ahve persuaded my mum to start yoga with me and im also starting karatie and Kick boxing! Im 17, i havent got a best friend ne more i recently found otu and realised that she had lied to me thoruhgout our 'relationship' and being very manipulative to get what she wanted wehn she wanted it. Nice eh? Some days i feel fine but then days i wake up and just think what have i to look forward to ....nothig! Id ont know why i do this? I hate myself

I dont know whats wrong with me..I have a boyfrined a good family enviorment and friends. Its just i feel like i havent actually got ne one to talk to or rely on. What ever my boyfriend does i find a way to have an argument. Whats wrong with me. when im in a car i often find myself wishing we would crash and i would die. I constantly ache and cant bare the pain i feel ne more im not mad just sad. I always have had difficulties with my boyfriend people accusing him of cheating etc and also my bestfriend has and does lie to me so this doesnt help. I hate myself too.....i think im fat and ugly and although no one knows i often dont eat for days, just so i dont out on weight i hate eating cos i can feel myself becoming more and more fat. I hate my life and wish more and more everyday that i was dead.

No longer in love You sed you loved me How could that be When you were with girls Other than me? Ive known this For far too long I just thought You would move on How could you treat me like a piece of trash Say u love me And then go and do that? But ill be ok Theres always abother day What can i say I did stray only because U deserved the pain. Heartboken outspoken always in pain Lovesrtuck Love sucks im going insane Thinking of Thinking bout ways of the game soaking in choking in ways i cant explain, unwillingly killing me i want to die soon enough itll get too tough and ill start to cry, troubled myth trouble with love is it ends with goodbye.

Im seeing her today. But i dont really know how to go about it. Should i just ask her staright out why she is doing this to me. Or shall i just gradually move onto the subject of her lying to me. I dont want to cause a huge argument between us because i cant be bothered with the agro of it all. I also have other problems that need more of my attention. I just fell to give up on her. I dont ever ring her any more or ask her to come out with me. I just fell as though she comes out wiht me and then goes back to her brother and tells him what we done but makes me look bad. Thats when the stories are made u and my boyfriend hears them and cant undestand why they would make them up. For example yesterday my boyfriends best friend told that there was a rumour going round that i slept with my boyfriends close friend. Of course this isnt true but i was told that Alex-my best friend had told her brother this, who had exagerated it and told everone else! My boyfriend doesnt believe this but is paranoid that his friends are now trying to "get with me" and that his close friend made the rumour up cos he does want to sleep with me. GOd i just realise how complicated my life is! Well at least its not boring! lol

Hi Maggie, What you have said i sexactly what my boyfriend and all his friends say. They say that she also slags me off saying im seeing other boys which i can ensure im not. Otherwise i wouldnt have this problem. THey cosistantly advise me to ignore her an tell her to go away- obviously not in those words. But i cant understand why she owuld do that to me i have nothing but help her through problems she has come accross. I guess you dont always receive what you give. Thankyou for you advice Many thanks Riannah x

I know for certain that the things my best friend are sayin are untrue wel most of them ne way because she has been caught out so many times ive lsot count along with her brother too. SHe once phoned me to say she had seen my bf with anoither girl thing was he was with me ....? She said she must have made a mistake and said a hasty goodbye?! Thankyou for yur advice guys i has helped me alot. I will keep them separate and also not tell them what the other has been saying i can see how that would anger them both. Cheers again its helped me alot!

I know how you feel i want to die too im sick of all the pain i feel from stupid love, men, friends, and everything in life. But i know that if i did do the worst thing and die...then my family and friends would be devestated recently my friend comitted suicide although in the end it was named accidental as he wanted t just scare his parents and not actually die. Now that effected alot of people, people who didnt even know him.....so if yu really do want to kill your self think what you might do to the people you leave behind. think how you can solve your problems that are makin you fell like this. I havent solved mine yet but thats why i am here. Hope you overcome your problems Riannah

I didnt think any one would reply to my post but thankyou very much for doing so. My friend well shes my best friend has once before rang me up to say she saw my boyfriend with his ex when he was actually with me. She then went on to say that maybe it was another boy she must have been mistakened, but at the time my boyfriend had a very distinctive orange car that NO ONE ELSE had....dont ask. So thereforeeee that makes me think does she often lie to me. Another thing is i met my boyfriend through my best friends brother whom hates the fact we are together and also often stirs and makes things up to cause fights betweeen us. I dont understand why they want to do that to us or why they ar so mean but my mum suggest that maybe my "betsfriend" fancies my boyfriend and her brother likes me. Well i dont think her brother fancies me hes often horrible to me calling me foul names. my bestfriend has trieed to kiss my boyfriend but he sed he pushed her away and told me straight away-we were in a club i was in the toilet! When i confronted her about this she denied it and sed he tried to kiss her. Thats when i left him......and never spoke to her but they both pestered me to speak to them again and i eneded up becoming friends with both of them. Sorry for babbling on.... but im too confused thanks....

Ive been seeing my boyfriend for a year now, he says he split up with his previous girlfriend but my friend constantly tells me that he is still with her. Which he probably is, the thing is i cant leave him i love him too much. He has beeen my first real boyfriend and i truly dont know what i would do without him. I feel so upset at times that i cant breathe. Please dont tell me to leave him as i truly cant i have tried and just end up going back to him because he rings me and begs for me back. Please help me out of this please. I feel the only way i could leave him is if i met another boy who i liked instantly

Well this is how its is, my boyfriend who i have been seeing for a year is known for a being a complete player which he was he was- i know that he said so. The thing is now he says he doesnt do that ne more! I see him everyday and we talk constantly on the phone we are consistantly saying we love each other and that sort of thing. You may think well whats the problem then. THe problems is i met him through my best friend's brother. Both my my best friend and her brother hate the fact that we are STILL together because we spend so much time together and not with them. My bestfriend and her brother are constantly stirring things between me and my boyfriend, saying things such as i saw him with another girl and shes cheating etc. They have both been caught out numerous times but still carry on with it. My bf and bestfriend constantly argue and drag me into it! My bestfriend also lies to me which i dont want to confront her about because i dont want the hassel. I have no one to talk to apart from my boyfriend, but i sometimes feel i cant speak to him because its about him! Does that make sense? Im so alone although im in a family of 6 and have too many friends and relatives. NO one can understand what im going through and its killing me. theres so much more to this story but its too long with too many details to write. i dont know what to do .....please help me