hey,
I had the same thoughts like everyone else, when anything could get worse, it did. But I started thinking... why... why should I take my own dam life because some things arent going right. That just doesnt make sense? The whole suicide thing is a game that we play out in our head. A big game of What ifs? Thats my personal opinion. You should not have to be affected by your breakup. Yes, I understand that you loved him, but I am telling you there are like so many other dam guys out there its crazy. Your life is worth 1000x the amount your boyfriends' worth. I am not here to BS you or stuff, but what right does someone who came into your life have the right to make you feel unwanted or suicidal. I am a very humorous person... thereforeeeeee I would laugh it off. Make jokes about it. I know I sound crazy, but laughter is helpful. I mean if it wasnt helpful, why do people use Icebreakers before a speech, or inside a classroom. It eases the tension.
About the bills. Look at them, and make sure your not getting ripped off. Pay for your own half of whatever you used. True it may be hard to tell about the water or electric bill. But remember, do not meet or talk to your ex in a upset state or angry, because it will only make you feel worse after. Show him, that you are doing fine on your own, yes do express your feelings but dont let them get the best of you. Use goals that you want to achieve as an extra push to say, hey I want to do that, or hey I still want to do a cross-country trip on the back of a camel... you get my point. Hope that helps out some..?