It hasn't even been two weeks since she broke it off. During that time we have still lived together which has made it harder for me. Luckily I am moving out this Friday. I have been trying to avoid her as much as I can considering we still live together, I think I've been pretty successful and we have only seen each other and spoken to each other a few times in the last week and a half. She claimed by ignoring her I was making things awkward, I told her this is what I needed to do in order to deal with this.
I also mentioned that once I moved out, I was going to need a lot of time and I told her I wasn't sure if we'd ever speak again. She said it was unfair for me to cut her out of my life since we were together 5 years. Another night she came to me and she was crying, saying she is sorry for ever hurting me and saying that she feels like a bad person. Maybe she was trying to get sympathy from me and ease her guilt, I don't know. She also told me she cares about very much and wants me to be happy. I tell her things will be better when I move out and I just need to be away from her.
Later that night she comes to me again complaining about her head hurting because she was in a minor fender bender earlier in the day. She always gets paranoid about injuries and she always would come to me about them and I would comfort her. Of course I wasn't going to tell her to go away, so I did comfort and tell her she was fine and looked up symptoms of head injuries on the internet. She asked me to keep my bedroom door open in case anything else happens to her. Then she proceeds to ask me all these questions about my new place that I am moving into. She asks if dogs are allowed, as we have a dog together. I say no, and she tells me "Well you can always come here to see the dog". I really do love our dog, but I know it is best for me once I move out to just be away from her, the house, and everything that reminds me of her.
Ever since then, I have been avoiding her and she hasn't really tried to talk to me. And this is what worries me. I got all excited for some reason when she came crying to me because It showed me that she still cared and that maybe she just needed time to sort out her feelings. But when a couple days go by and she doesn't try to speak to me, I feel like she no longer cares.
I am probably being very paranoid, considering its hasn't even been two weeks since the breakup and I haven't even moved out yet to start NC! I know I shouldn't be worried about what she is thinking, but I can't help it. Someone said on here in another thread, that your ex won't forget about you if you had a long and meaningful relationship. We had 5 years together, we shared so much, it was very meaningful and now I feel like she is forgetting all about me. Either that or she is just respecting my wishes of wanting space.
I know I am reading too much into this, I suppose I need to move out and give it more time, it is just hard when you still live together. I just wonder what will happen when I move out this Friday and initiate NC.