SadOldMan Posted March 8, 2007 Author Share Posted March 8, 2007 Looks like my ex has been here. Letters sent to my old address have been posted through the letterbox. Why is my heart pounding? Link to comment
Locke2121 Posted March 8, 2007 Share Posted March 8, 2007 Can you tell us what they say? Link to comment
SadOldMan Posted March 8, 2007 Author Share Posted March 8, 2007 heheh...Sorry. I didn't mean 'letters', I meant post addressed to me. I was going to go over to the house this weekend to pick them up while she's at her mums (she always goes to see her mum on a Saturday). No point now. (Final two things I need to change address for. Now I shouldn't get any mail at all at the old place.) Link to comment
SadOldMan Posted March 8, 2007 Author Share Posted March 8, 2007 I try hard To put you out of mind Every night alone I'm thinking 'bout you How can I avoid this Pain without you I won't cry I won't be sorry no more I know that this is something I'll get over Maybe I can learn to love another It's just a matter of time A matter of time Just because I lock myself in my room It doesn't mean that I'm afraid to talk to Those people I know that might have you seen you No return I keep reminding myself I won't look back Won't regret a single moment I gonna mend this heart inside you've broken It's just a matter of time A matter of time It's just a matter of time A matter of time Show me the way They say safety in numbers I lift up my eyes to the sky And imagine a crowd Of hearts that surround me And give the me courage to die Were you to weep And lie at my feet Then you'd wash all My troubles away And imagine the host Of angels around me That give me the courage to die Link to comment
SadOldMan Posted March 9, 2007 Author Share Posted March 9, 2007 OMG! Today I felt like my head was going to explode. I was getting more and more wound up by the lack of fairness on my exes part regarding the mortgage payments. I just logged onto my bank account and hovered over cancelling the direct debit. Didn't cancel it though. I want to! ;-) Link to comment
SadOldMan Posted March 17, 2007 Author Share Posted March 17, 2007 Things are going okay, I guess. I know that I haven't let go and still harbour hopes of a reconciliation with my ex. But it's only been a month since we last had any contact. That's nothing after a 12 year relationship, I know. My sister went out for a meal with my ex. I know I shouldn't have let her tell me what they talked about, but I did. My ex said to my sister "If I think I've made a mistake, I'll just have to live with it". Same words she said to in the beginning. She said she misses me but doesn't know if that's just because she's lonely or she loves me. I hurt now. Link to comment
peteypie Posted March 18, 2007 Share Posted March 18, 2007 keep your head up old man , i know the feelings hurt sometime mine do. as i said before drop me a message sometime if you wanna chat. good to catch up with you. you think you are doing so well sometimes then suddenly a small thing knocks you for 6 i know what its like. Link to comment
catren Posted March 18, 2007 Share Posted March 18, 2007 You sound like you're doing the things that need to be done. Is the house on the market yet? Link to comment
SadOldMan Posted March 18, 2007 Author Share Posted March 18, 2007 Catren: yes. Been up for sale for just over a month now. Link to comment
Mavis VDSande Posted March 18, 2007 Share Posted March 18, 2007 Stay strong! Don't buckle under any pressure Link to comment
SadOldMan Posted March 24, 2007 Author Share Posted March 24, 2007 Wow. Had another counseling on Thursday. Before going in, I didn't really feel that much. No anxiety or anything. Coming out I went really down. Just before the session ended, she said to me "you're feeling very vulnerable". I then realised I had just about wrapped both arms around myself. From then on, I've felt shocking. Thinking about my ex a lot. My sister spoke to her on Thursday. She was going to tell me what they talked about but I told her I don't want to know anything that's going on in my exes life. Any reasons why it's suddenly hit me life a brick after nearly 7 weeks of no contact? I know 7 weeks is nothing after 12 years but the strength of emotions nearly overwhelmed me. ps. Still nobody interested in the house Link to comment
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