Anahera1 Posted July 5, 2017 Share Posted July 5, 2017 Me and my Fiance have been together for almost 4 years to be honest the 1st 2 and a half years were amazing i couldn't have asked for anyone better he helped me through so much bad stuff. (I left a really abusive relationship with my 3 sons and thought that was it no more men for me we struggled financially but got by) Anyway pretty much to the end of the third year i fell pregnant found out at 6 weeks along it was twins i was so happy at the scan till i looked at him and he just looked like he wanted the ground to swallow him up. We drove back to his house in silence he we went straight into his room lay on the bed and just cried i had never seen a man break down so i cried with him it broke my heart. After that he just seemed distant we talked he told me he never wanted kids and that he wasn't ready so i started to ask if he wanted me to move back to my own country and raise them on my own i didn't want him to feel so much pressure but he wouldn't let me kept saying he wanted to marry me and buy a house before having children wanted us to travel 1st and it was like that every day i just felt pressured. I felt sorry i had a IUD in when we meet as i already have 3 sons so we were more than shocked. Apparently it moved and i had 2 eggs waiting😟 He pretty much wore me down and i went to the clinic the whole time crying i wasn't offred counseling or anything worst day of my life i wanted to just stay on that bed and Die. (I cry most days and have tried to hurt myself since). A month after that i find out he has been having an emotional affair with his ex i say emotional affair as she wouldn't have sex with him untill marriage. Broke me into a million pieces i broke up with him and tried to move on but he wouldn't let me he would come to my cry plead try to propose i said No. This continued for 7 months him running back and forwards between me and her. He didn't want to leave her she was saying she had breast cancer and she was really sick (She didn't it was all made up she was already married had children she was just a horrible person) Once he found out the truth he pretty much just broke it off for good and has never contacted her but the damage to me was done i was mentally and physically bad i have really bad anxiety and ptsd and Depression. We took a break a month and since than we have tried to work on us. This year he has been amazing i have his passwords to everything his work Shedules but still i will go into this free fall were im stuck on flight mode i accuse him of cheating every week remind him of what he did every day. I swear i love him i just can't let go of the pain and these past 3 weeks have been the worst and i think i have really hit rock bottom i tried to commit suicide he found me its not that i want to die its that i want to forget. Anyway he has pulled completely back he tells me he loves and wants to marry me but he has no passion for me anymore. He has tried for a year and a half to bring us back he tells me daily he wants us work but i can tell he has given up. What can i do i want to marry this man but everything that comes out of my mouth is vile. Link to comment
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