Guy123456 Posted January 19, 2017 Share Posted January 19, 2017 Okay so I'll try to get this as good as possible. So me and my ex dated for about 3 months. We had our squabbles. Like any normal relationship. We fell in love and she said she wouldn't say it if she didn't mean it and said it daily to eachother. Sometimes I had a hard time expressing my feelings and sometimes I didn't always tell her when I made it home. This made her think I was a and disrespectful. I never cheated on her, verbally abused her, or anything. I always went and spent every weekend with her, texted her back as soon as I could and tried to do everything she wanted to do. One weekend we just kinda split. She said it seemed like I didn't really care because I didn't always show my emotion. Well a week and a half two weeks goes by and I text her saying you know I'm sorry I don't want to give us up I love you ect. She said she needed time to process. And she was disappointed in me. She had started talking to someone else. Well I say and waited. Things didn't work out between her and that guy so she decided to text me about a week after they stopped. Said we could talk to see if we could fix things. I agreed. I tried to come see her but she wouldn't allow it because she said she was always busy. School work and a internship. So I understood and continued to just be patient. We talk a little each day. Barely at all really. But just little something back and forth like have a good day and ect. Never really a full conversation except a few times. Well about week two she says I love you. Of course I say it back. We continue the routine of talking just a little everyday. Sometimes not at all a few days. Again busy studying for finals and what not. Well then finals are over and she goes on vacation. This whole time I haven't felt like she was trying or really actually cared. Well since I felt like she didn't try I pushed and pushed this whole time we decided to talk. I overwhelmed her. Eventually she told me she wanted space. I texted her the next day just to apologize for how I was acting. She said I was just about to text you and have a good day I love you. Well then she doesn't talk to me. I say something and she goes just because we talked for a day didn't mean I changed my mind about needing space. And I tried to let her be but it was hard I wouldn't text her all day but everyday I would just try to show I care. And then she finally goes why do you keep texting me if I don't reply I just said it's hard to just let go of someone you truly love. she goes I said I wanted space. So I said I'll respect you and give you space. I waited 5 days or so and just harmlessly said hey not try to spark a conversation or bug you but just wanted to say hope all is well since I was thinking of you. She goes thanks for the kind gesture but we don't need to be communicating. I go so are you done? She goes uh yes. I think I've made that very clear. I asked why she just said she had enough and to leave her alone. Told her I respect her decision and I didn't want to give her up so easily but it's what she wants. Basically I had waited for 3 1/2 months. Only to be shot down. I am always plagued with the what did I do wrong. Where did I go wrong. Ect. I am working on myself I go to school work full time. Trying to buy my first house. Sad thing is she won't know any of this because she's from a hour away and we don't have any mutual friends. And I don't have social media. I often sit and wonder if she thinks about me. If she said what she said out of anger or if she's truly just done. Right now I can't picture being with anyone else nor do I really have the desire. It hurts but after being ignored and kinda just feel like someone doesn't care it's not as bad. But it still hurts that someone says they love you then just walked away and didn't say anything. She's a good woman deep down I just don't know what's gotten into her. I'm just assuming there's someone else but I don't know. Her happiness is what matters to me and if she's happy I'm happy. But I guess my question to everyone is do you think that maybe letting go of someone that truly cares about her is something she will regret? Or that maybe she'll reach out to me again. I'm not going to bother her anymore and I'm just gonna worry about myself and do what I want. I don't need her but I want her. Sorry for the novel guys. Getting things off your chest can be a lengthy process it seems lol. Link to comment
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