Day 8 NC

[Thebighere]

Hello ENA,

 

I'm on day 8 of NC and actually feeling really quite good.

 

Around day 3 of NC i started to think about things but i didn't get too far because no matter how much a pondered the same few sentences kept on coming back to me..

 

....He has left me.

.....He s willing to risk losing me FOREVER

 

...HE HAS MADE A CHOICE WHICH MEANS RISKING LOSING ME, FOREVER.

 

What more is there to think about. The details don't matter. He's left!

 

This was actually great for me because it has forced me to stop thinking about him. I have started to make plans. I have made some awesome plans with friends. I have met some new people (this has been so great!) because i forced myself to join a life drawing class over the weekend. I have things i want to do. Dare i say it, i have felt moments of happiness.

 

I've been making things (i'm an artist and neglected this side of me)

 

I have *no* urge to contact him.

 

I hope this feeling continues!!!

 

Thank you for the support

[Hermes]

So very glad, TBH. It isn't easy, but you are making strides. You are also in touch with reality...very important.

[Thebighere]

So weird. He just texted me but i'm not gonna respond.

[SooSad33]

No, dont bother responding. Usually meaningless msg's.

He ended it? then let him move on. His choice, right? Then go!

 

Expect more rough days/moments, though. This stuff comes in waves....