help me pleassse i wont ever live the same agian

[ixishoesixi]

hi guys im 15 yrs old, i just wanna tell u my story, its a little weird but please try to undertand- i met this boy through my friend around october of 2002, and we would ALWAYS talk about every single thing, every single nite to, after a couple months he started to say i love u, and i knew he meant it, but i didnt say it back cause i didnt love him, but i would hook up with other people and he would find out about it, he would cry over that to, i jus didnt really understand his pain, that lasted for a couple months, but we still talked every night --> about in febuary of 2003 i started to say i love you bc i knew i did, but i could tell he was changin, but i didnt care cause i thought well hes still with me now so im happy - but then i came home one day in april ( its been 7 months now since were talkin ) and i see on the IM " i want to see other people " .. my life ever since i saw that has never been the same, i love him sooo much i jus wish everyone could understand..i thought my life wuold never be the same, n i thought it was all my fault cause i used to hook up wit other people, i wanted to die, so after that month of hell, laying in my bed always crying, i came out and saiD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH bla bla.. then we started talkin agian.. n he said he always loved me, he jsut never showed it n we went out for like 2 days n broke up bc i wasnt in the dating session of my life then.. & ever since then we'v been firends n all, but i miss him so0o0o0o0o0o00o0oo0o0o0o0o0 much --> he was my first love& i was his first love and i will NEVER forget him, i got to the stage now where i know i can live my life but i will alwayyys remember the memories and that makes me sad.. i dont think i can live the SAME agian, even if i do find another love* can u please help me im only 15 and i dont know what to do

[ComingUpDaisies]

I have been there too. I know how you feel. Just remember that there are millions of people who go through the same emotions that you are going through and you are not alone. I had my heart broke when I was your age and I honestly never thought I would get over it. I'm 35 now, and time does heal the pain. My advice to you would be to get involved in a hobby, learn something new, join a class of some kind and meet new people. Either a sport or an art class might me good for you. It might not sound exciting at first, but force yourself. Trust me it will be good for you. Get out there and broaden your mind. Work on becoming you. You are and will always be your best friend. You don't need a man to make you complete. I am a single mother of two. I have a successful career and I own my own home. You are young and your life is just beginning. Make sure you keep your grades up and start looking at careers. You do not want to rely on having a man take care of you. If you dedicate yourself right now to becoming a responsible, knowledgeable, educated, and eventually independent person, you will become happy with yourself and eventually draw someone just like yourself to you.

[ixishoesixi]

thank you so much, that really helps i mean i was always an outgoing girl, im crazy but this has gotten me soo fustrated thankx for ur help.. neone else got advice?

[sisterlynch]

He talked to you for two or three months to see what you were about and as soon as you got close to him he backed out? To me that sounds really strange. Why do you think he lost interest so suddenly?

[ixishoesixi]

i guess he kinda gave up cause of all the shyt i did to him he once said this to me " DID YOU EVER FINALLLY GET WAT U REALLY WANTED, BUT THEN DIDNT WANT IT ANYMORE?" but he said that as soon as we stopped talken.. actually tonight was a grreatttt i saw him tonight n he said.. " no matter wat u think i really was happy to see u "

[sisterlynch]

Remember the old saying...This too shall pass....Just put the feelings into something positve, find something positve that you can do and do it.

 

Life is complicated at times, it is important to forget the past and live for the present.

[rachmegan8]

Hey hun. Let me just tell you that you will get over it! I'm 18 years old & I remember the first time I was in love. The guy broke my heart and I thought I'd never ever be the same again. I was rude to my parents and my friends b/c of it. I blamed myself for being too fat, ugly, and stupid...which I am none of those things, but you tend to blame yourself when a guy leaves you. It's not your fault though. He doesn't deserve you and you will find someone soooo much better! Trust me! You are so young and you will have many more boyfriends and many more heartbreaks. Each heartbreak you have will make you stonger. Once you find your special someone, you will realize that you weren't even in love with this person. I konw you feel like the world is ending right now, but trust me life gets better. This was meant to happen. I hope you feel better. The best thing to do is to go out w/ friends and if you want...date other boys. Good luck! [/i]