Rosa Posted October 27, 2004 Share Posted October 27, 2004 I haven't posted in a while, been trying to move on, I still reminisce sometimes, and want to dial that number, but I don't. I have a new boyfriend who likes me a lot, I like him also, not as much, and not as strong, but I do care for him. I miss that passion that I had with my ex, but I've been able to move on, slowly.... Yesterday my ex after three weeks called me, its funny because every three weeks he calls, is there a testosterone explanation to this? because every three weeks never fails... anyways, when he called, I didn't pick up the phone, it seems that everytime I do, I ended up a few steps back, so I didn't. Today I decided to c/b, and of course we talked, laughed, flirted, he even told me that he loves me, and that he feels so good every time he talks to me, and that yesterday when he called, he had a rush of emotions, and began to think about us, and he smiled, he also said that sometimes he would wanna dial my number and he would stop himself from dialing, and would force himself to think of other things, to not think of me..... he asked about my family with concern, our conversation got a little steamy reminiscing on our great sex life, and then we said I love you to each other, and he threw me a kiss, and we hung up..... Of course I cried like an idiot, and wanted to scream! I was coming back from my b/f's house, then I started to feel happy, bcause I knew he still loves me, he also has a girlfriend, they have been dating since we broke up, ( 5 months), we had a 2 yr relationship, lived together 1 yr. I moved out in May 2004, in June I met my boyfriend, who is very suportive, nice, social, all my friendss love him, and thins he''s great for me, in a way i also believe this because I came from an intense realtionship, and with him i'm more relaxed, and in control of my feelings, but don't you love that uncontrolable feeling of love and passion, and knowing that someone feels the same for you? I do, I miss it a lot, and I don't have it with my new b/f, he does for me, but I don't. Sometimes I feel like i'm living a lie, because i'm with the wrong man, but I don't wanna let him go,he's the best that's ever happened to me, and everyone else sees it in me...but i'm in love with someone else. I don't know how to handle this..... my b/f has done so much for me that i feel like i owe him, he bought me a car, helps me with my bills, we just came back from Vegas vacation, and wants to help me with EVERYTHING, I tell him he doesn't have to, but he still does it for me.... what i would really want is to get back with my ex and take things slow......but he broke things off with me, and I don;t wanna be rejected again by him, and regret not wanting to start over with someone new, who is willing to give me the world... do you think I should give it a shot and talk with my ex? i've been plannig this day for long, and now I'm not sure if I should do it, and if it is the right thing to do.....the heart is so deceiving that i don't know if I can trust it... anyways, what can i do????? Quote Link to comment
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