Lithp Posted November 12, 2011 Share Posted November 12, 2011 So I just ended things with my boyfriend of nearly two years literally moments ago and I honestly have no idea what to feel. Things had been going really great since we got back together and then slowly I started to find out he was smoking pot and drinking again, then our time together started to dwindle, then he started cancelling plans with me again... basically an entire replay of our relationship last year when he was struggling with depression. But I stuck through it this time because overall, things have been going really well for us. We weren't fighting, we were more involved in each other's lives, everything was going really great and I was SO proud of him for picking himself up again. This morning he was at his Mom's and sent a text saying he would be back in town later cause he had made plans with his friends and there was a party he was supposed to be attending. He made these plans last night. Well, all week we had been discussing plans for tonight and up until yesterday they were still a go. I reminded him of this and he said sorry, that he had forgotten, and he would make it up to me another time. I know this may seem like not a huge thing to most people, but he has always been inconsiderate of my feelings and this is just one of the many ways. I told him that he should stick with our plans rather than go out to this party, as ours had been made well in advance, and he just kept saying he didn't know what he should do...even though I was telling him what he should do But he downright refused to back out of the party, and I told him if he couldn't put in the effort with us like he does with his friends, then I was done and I didn't want him in my life anymore. He started going on about 'you deserve better' 'I am not the person you want me to be' 'You shouldn't have to wait for me' and all that crap... Which I am wise to as I went through this with him before and I know it's a game to get me to feel bad and revoke my anger. So he gets to do what he wants with no consequence while he continues to hurt me and I get to say nothing of it. Everything just kind of came flooding back and was like 'It's begun again!! Get out while you still can!'. So I told him again to decide what he wants and he just kept throwing it in my face how much he hates himself, what a bad person he is, etc... I told him I didn't want him in my life anymore and not to contact me. I have blocked and deleted his number, blocked and deleted his Facebook, and any other thing I can block and delete him from will surely follow if I can find it Honestly I am really hurt right now, and angry, and frustrated, and I can't even cry about it. I stood by him through so much, supported him, encouraged him to be the person he wanted to be, and I got treated like this. It feels surprisingly good to own my happiness again. It feels good to put a stop to the way he made me feel, but it also really sucks to know he was the first person I could honestly say I loved and he refused to show it back, no matter how much he said it. ARghargharg. Anyone wanna share? Commiserate? Bash their ex? Link to comment
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