circus Posted November 10, 2011 Share Posted November 10, 2011 Hi all. This is my story. I'm 22 and my bf is 37. We have been together for a year and a half and have a 4 month old daughter. Basically, I was off studying doing something I loved when I found myself to be pregnant. As we had only been together 5/6 months, we thought best to terminate. However, actually being pregnant obviously makes you question your morals and I couldn't bring myself to do it, so we now have a gorgeous daughter. Throughout the pregnancy, I was having doubts about our relationship but just put it down to being hormonal and stuck it out. My partner is a wonderful person, an amazing father and gives so much to the relationship. He is deeply in love with me. I recently went on a trip for a week and came back really distant. I think it made me realise that my love is lost and I now see him as a friend. I love him so much because of his attributes but no longer feel that spark. I know this happens to many couples, and I can't work out if I'm just content with my relationship or if I just don't see him like that anymore. While I was away, I met a guy who I really liked, and I keep in touch with. I never did anything with him, no cheating or anything, but I just think if I like this guy surely thats a sign I shouldnt be in my relationship. Maybe its because I was somewhere new and the experience was something that made me feel attracted to this new guy or maybe I genuinely like him. Obviously, we only knew each other a few days so I'm not reading into it too much but when I came back I found myself not being able to stop thinking about him. He likes me too. He hasn't pressured me or anything, he just wants to be friends until I am in a better position which is obviously what I want as I don't want to play away or hurt my boyfriend. My bf knows everything because I felt so guilty and he could tell something was wrong. He looked through messages I had written to a friend about it all, which I really didnt appreciate but we now know that being honest was the best thing. He doesnt want me to visit this guy, which I can obviously understand, but even if I didn't visit him, I would still have the same feelings. The thing that makes it hard is obviously the fact we have such a young baby, and I know people would think 'why the hell have a baby then?' but I can't change that now. When making that decision it was right at the time for us and I didnt think this would happen but now it has, hes completely heartbroken. I'm not leading him on, and I'm being true to how I feel but its just hard when he makes me feel guilty if I leave. I need to put my baby first but I can't be with someone I don't love. I really don't know what to do. Does anyone have any advice at all? I know it sounds like I'm completely treating him like * * * * e and I shoulda just forgot about this other guy, but I'm only human and I can't help how I feel. I don't want to live a lie, or lie to him and hurt him by not saying anything. At least its out in the open but it still doesnt make it any easier. I just needed to get that off my chest but would really be grateful to anyone if they had any advice. Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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