Cynder Posted November 3, 2011 Share Posted November 3, 2011 I realized something over the last few days... I am almost 33 years old, and this is the first time in my life that I've liked someone and they like me back. It's sad really... but that's beside the point. The problem here is that I have no idea how to react to this. I'm serious... He sends me a facebook message and I panic and spend 20 minutes figuring out how to reply. I put myself so under the microscope when I'm around him. I'm waiting for myself to screw it all up, you know? And it shouldn't be that way. I am that doubtful of myself... And what's worse yet is I am looking for ways to demonize him too. I find myself thinking that he is just messing with me. There must be a catch... He's just playing me for an idiot, etc. I even caught myself thinking he doesn't really like me at all, this is all in my head. Most people learn how to handle this situation as a teenager. I wasn't popular as a teen. And even if I would have been, my parents were strict when it came to dating and stuff so I wouldn't have been allowed to date much even if the boys were interested. I feel this need to calculate every move... He mentioned earlier this week about me possibly coming over Saturday if I didn't have to work Sunday. Well today I found out I don't have to work Sunday and I spent hours debating on whether or not to message him. I thought I might be smothering him. He might be annoyed, etc. And I know this is a deeper seeded problem. My whole life I've been made to feel unwanted by most people. So when someone actually wants to be around me and takes interest in me it throws me completely off. I feel like I'm rambling... But I think you guys get what I"m saying. So what can I do about it? Link to comment
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