Cynder Posted October 31, 2011 Author Share Posted October 31, 2011 If I was with him would I want him and someone else? Honestly I can't answer that question right now. He is someone I feel really connected to and there's a real magnetism between us. I think if we were together we probably would be happy as hell with each other and not want anyone else. But that's only speculation... I know he has some pretty liberal ideas about relationships himself. We have talked about stuff like that. He has told me he's intrigued with Bisexual women and always wanted to date one. He told me if he ever had a Bi girlfriend he would let her be with other women as long as he got to at least watch once in a while, lol. I know I'm rambling a little, sorry. Basically, I would like to think that I would only want him and no one else if we were together. But I can't guarantee that. What if him and I were together and I really start missing being with women, and he encourages me to go find myself a girlfriend. Then what? Well, then I don't want just him anymore. I just have no way of knowing. If he's all in it for one on one is hard to say. He knows what kind of marriage I have. He sends me all these really strong signals... the other night he was doing all these little things like kissing my hands, and playing with my hair, etc. And the biggest one being his ambiguous use of the L word... But then not too long ago he told his roommate (my friend) that he doesn't want a relationship at all right now. Idk... Yea, it is straining... I don't feel like I've lost any sense of self though. If anything I'm gaining some sense of self through all this. But yea... I'm not sure what to do there. I know hopping from one bed to another bed isn't a good idea. This thing with him was so unplanned. I want so many things that conflict with each other right now. It's like I want to be with him, but I also want to be single... I want to leave the country, I want to switch jobs but don't want to lose the sweet money I'm making. It's all a mess right now. If I do go away it won't be for a long time... that's if I even go at all. Link to comment
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