PaRaDoX

READY? hehe Ok, I suppose I just need to get this off my chest, which is why I am re-treating to this forum, but... Anyway... blah blah blah.... I WAS WAY EMOTIONAL WHEN I WROTE THIS.. but thanks for the help.

Ok, here we go... Well, this is rather interesting to me because I'm in the positon of being one of those OTHER girls (FAR AWAY)! Anyway, because of the situation we couldn't really date-date because of distance. Nonetheless, that didn't stop me from falling hard, like REAL hard.... ahh. With this person, I finally felt understood, ya know? We started out as friends, but we felt there was more there, but yet... ya know we couldn't really do anything about it. However, (and lets call this person "it" shall we.) Anyway, so "it" was also seeing someone else while we were also getting closer, just causal tho, so all is good. Well, I thought. Anyway, to cut a LONGGG story short. "it" went away for a week with a bunch of friends but that OTHER person was also joining, so in the back of my mind I figured something would happen. Anyway, it turned out that this OTHER person confessed love for "it" and "it" also obliged EVEN tho I existed. Damn, it's hard, and it still is.. considering I hold on to things and it's hard to let go, and I really loved or love this person. BUT! to get to my point... just because your guy was talking to other girls and saved pics or whatever... (and I swear that is just because of sentiment), it doesn't change the fact that HE DOES want to be with you!! OR seriously, he wouldn't, like honestly think about it... he wants to be with you!! Listen to the OTHER girl (hehe) you ARE speical to him or he wouldn't be with you, ok? I know this... I mean, if you really love someone or want to be with someone you'd do anything to be with them, and what's distance, ya know? SO YES... seriously, HE WANTS TO BE WITH YOU and ONLY YOU! Take Care PS>>> My response was way better before.. urg! But what'cha gonna do, I suppose.

Ahh, I just had a lengthy response to you.. and ack, I lost it. However, I shall try this again, just a sec. - stupid computers!

I agree with Gracie again. And ya know just because he doesn't want to be "with-you with-you" it doesn't mean he doesn't care about you, because I can tell that he does very much. And plus 8 years of knowing each other... that's hella long! And you know just because he doesn't love you the way you would probably want him to... it doesn't mean he doesn't love you with everything he's got, ya know what I mean? You didn't do anything wrong, which is why this is not adding up to you, but life is full of surprises. And I've come to learn that "things" sometimes don't EVER go the way they are planned. Not that it's a bad thing, because whatever "it" is and "it" is meant to be, it will always come together in the end. And if it's not OK... well, it's not the end. That's the way I see things anyway. Life is full of surprises and I don't know if that's such a bad thing, because GOOD GOD it really opens your eyes to most things and really makes you learn... well, from my experience anyway. I'm shocked every single day or overwhelmed by something or EVERYTHING for that matter. Everything is a miracle it's just I think when we think of miracles we think of this HUGE things, when it simply could be a leaf falling off a tree or how grass grows or how a baby can talk... ahh EVERYTHING..... sorry went on a tangent there (hehe)... but... You will be ok, I swear. PS... I wouldn't pretend anything, just be you! byez

Aww, my heart goes out to you, but I agree with what "gracie" said... sounds like he has been thinking about this for awhile. However, you shouldn't feel like you aren't good enough for him, which may then result to you thinking you aren't good enough for anyone, cause it isn't true. It's just the way life goes... it's hard, anyone would be lucky to have you, I'm sure. The pain will go away... it's a transition you have to go thru, and you guys can be bestfriends, eventually, but maybe having some space is a good idea. Nonetheless, (cause I have jealousy issues myself and I tend to do this), but try not to obsess yourself with him or the situation cause it will make you crazy (believe me!)... go out with the girls or somethin, try to keep yourself busy. You'll get thru this, I swear! "This too shall pass," but I understand how hard it must feel and what you are going thru, but it'll all be ok... all in do time. I know that probably sucks as an answer, but it's the truth. Take Care