You just need to stick with it. It's not gonna be like this for the rest of your life. Suicide is the coward's way out of problems. Tough it out. I used to always think of killing myself a few years ago. I was fat, my grades were failing, and I didn't have any friends. In just a few years I worked off my gut, skipped ahead a grade, and got plenty of friends. Keep doin wut ur doin. It'll get better.