I have been married for 4 and 1/2 years, to a guy 15 years older than me. He has got two kids from his previous marriage that lives with us. In the beginning we got a long well, we got married, and his ex-wife dropped his kids at the front gate never to fetch them again. I have tried so so hard with these kids, I give them everything I would give my own, but still they do not respect me - they tell stories about me to my husband, and he believes them, always takes their side - no matter what.
I have really been trying so hard, my husband use to hit me in the beginning, but that has stopped now.
I have been trying to save the marriage and always take a step back to see what I am doing wrong and how I can fix things, for the past year - I have not been intimate with my husband, as I don't feel anything towards him anymore - I am so scared of him.
I want to leave, but do not know how to tell him. I am scared of his reaction and what he will do to me. Financially I am not dependent on him at all.
His daughter has now come up with a story that she was molested at school and that it is my fault - as I picked her up from school to late - and that I stole her savings money, he leaves her to scream at me and be disrespectful, they do not do their chores, they do not even speak to me.
This relationship is like poison to my soul at the moment - I am trying to stay positive and not to show that I am unhappy, but it is so hard for me.
Please help! I do not know what to do, but I am not happy and I don't want to be in this relationship as - he never even asks me how my day was - I must cook, clean and pick up after his kids all the time.
Last week I have met a guy, a bit younger than me, we are just friends (I don't have any friends - as I am not allowed any friends - not even allowed to see my mom and my sister) and I really enjoy his company, we can talk about a lot of different things, and we share the same interests ... I don't want to cheat on my husband ever! as that will destroy me! But I want to get out this relationship - but I do not know how to ....