redpoppy99 Posted March 27, 2007 Share Posted March 27, 2007 I have been thinking about my ex a lot- not because I want them back only because I still care. This person was my first love, my first sexual partner- I really thought we'd be together forever. I was in high school, though. I've always had a problem keeping NC- I want to know how things are, how their life is going. I kind of wonder if they miss me. Maybe that's just for gratification though. It was not a good break up- there was cheating on both sides and our families don't like each other... why do I still care so much? Do I still have feelings even though I tell myself I don't? I honestly don't want to get back together... I recently got their email via text messaging. I haven't used it yet. I want to. Is this a bad idea? I always think I go through this over and over again because there was never closure- we talked and "saw" each other (having sex the whole time) until I decided I'd had enough and found someone else. The actual end of the relationship was abrupt- I was told one night by my ex that they could no longer talk to me because I was in a relationship. I decided to try and let them go but I can't- it's almost been two years. Help and advice would be greatly appreciated... Link to comment
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