This Little Lady Posted March 19, 2007 Share Posted March 19, 2007 I really don't know whats going on in my own head so I'm just going to toss this out there. Maybe someone has gone through the same thing.](*,) I'm in an awesome relationship with a guy I absolutely adore. I've been having really stupid family issues for the last while so I've been staying with him. I got into a fight one day with my mom and went on a rampage so to say. I was pissed off and angry at everything. For some reason I directed anger at him, I don't know why and through this random thought in my face that maybe I didn't love him. Which totally makes no sense what so ever. Suddenly I started thinking about leaving him and actually believing this random thought. The weird thing is there is like this duality where I am my regular happy, go lucky self, who is completely in love with the guy and then there is this girl who has no hope and is practically emotionless. What do I do? I feel like I know who I am but this thought totally just screwed me right up. I know it may not seem like a big deal. But it doesn't make sense why I should feel this way or have these thoughts! All I know is it feels like there is a war going on in my head and I feel like I'm going crazy!!! Anyone ever go through this before? Link to comment
needopinions Posted March 19, 2007 Share Posted March 19, 2007 please don't take this wrong but have you ever been to counselling? or been tested for bipolar disorder or anything before? Link to comment
This Little Lady Posted March 19, 2007 Author Share Posted March 19, 2007 Haha, no worries. I was actually considering it because it makes zero sense to me. I also thought for a while that maybe I was Dissociative identity disorder but I don't know. I just wanted to know if it was normal to feel that kind of duality. It feels like I'm constantly butting heads with myself. But the bi polar one kind of sounds like it actually could be soo. I'm not sure though. I should get it checked out. Thanks for your advice. Link to comment
This Little Lady Posted March 19, 2007 Author Share Posted March 19, 2007 *sorry, maybe I had dissociative identity disorder, not was it. Link to comment
strange dried bus Posted March 19, 2007 Share Posted March 19, 2007 you always take things out on the one closest to you thats so normal, and when he said that u didnt love him it just triggered confusion, i give it a week and you will be over it. your dealing with your stress and everyone does that diffrently. or maybe your just a gemini? but m8 im always like that! Link to comment
This Little Lady Posted March 19, 2007 Author Share Posted March 19, 2007 Haha. See I figured it was something like what too. Cause I didn't understand why it happened. I was seriously fine one moment and then a lose cannon the next. I do admit though there is a lot of tension going on in my family right now. I just didn't get why I freaked out so bad or why this confusion set in in the first place. For a while I thought I was having doubts about our relationship but it just didn't add up. I'm hoping it will go away. It kind of freaked me out when it happened cause it felt like there was someone else in my head. I hope your right though. I figured I know myself well enough to get through it, but I was afraid I was kind of going insane. Link to comment
Cyprian Posted March 21, 2007 Share Posted March 21, 2007 Are you a Gemini though, This Little Lady? I am curious now Link to comment
ioxu Posted March 21, 2007 Share Posted March 21, 2007 I'd like to know how he reacted to your 'tirade'. If he put up with it cheerfully and let you rant, wow, he's a keeper Not that he isn't if he fought back. Link to comment
This Little Lady Posted March 21, 2007 Author Share Posted March 21, 2007 Haha nope Libra. The emotional, sappy one Surprising he has been calm during the whole thing. I think he knew it was family things bothering me. He's has listened to me through all of this and has been extremely supportive. I feel so lucky that he is in my life. So thats why I was weirded out when the not loving him thing popped up because I know I absolutely adore him. I'm usually pretty good at dealing with stress and I don't think I have ever snapped. I know I'm dealing with alot more than I usually do so I guess some freaking out was inevitable. Do you think just dealing with this weird stress kind of created a dual way of looking at things and I became really negative because of it? Link to comment
ghost69 Posted March 21, 2007 Share Posted March 21, 2007 a lot of people seem to think that running from problems is the easiest way to deal with them. Link to comment
This Little Lady Posted March 22, 2007 Author Share Posted March 22, 2007 I try never to run away from a problem because I know they usually get out of hand if they aren't looked after. I think alot of what was happening in my family life was really out of my control so then I freaked because a big part of my life was just going haywire and there was absolutely nothing I could do to stop it. Ahhh chaos. Link to comment
This Little Lady Posted March 25, 2007 Author Share Posted March 25, 2007 Anyone know anything about multiple personality disorders? That duality is still lurking. Its alot better than it was its just still there. Link to comment
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