bostonbrokenheart Posted March 10, 2007 Share Posted March 10, 2007 Hello everyone - I'd first like to say how wonderful I think this site is as it's nice to see the internet being used for things like these (support). I have a sad story that millions share but, of course, I can't help but feel like I'm going through it worse than anyone. Basically, I dated a girl for three years that, when we first got together, agreed that we were "meant to be" and "soul mates". I would tell my friends that I would marry this girl after the first night of meeting her. Well, I broke up with a girl (after 2 years) to be with this girl (Jess) and I was ready. However, the first 6 months were anything but pleasant; we would fight, I didn't really know why, and it just got ugly. We did our best to work it out and eventually moved in with each other. We dated for another year and she started saying that she couldn't be herself anymore due to all the fighting. So, she moved out and we broke up - she moved about 5 streets away. During this time, I was HURTING bad. I started dating a girl whom I was always interested in but my heart just wasn't there. One month of not talking to Jess, we randomly ran into each other and the sparks were just amazing. I knew, right there, that I was way too much in love with Jess to give up. A few days later, I convinced her to give it a try and we were off. During this time, she moved even closer - less than 20 yards away!!! Brutal. But, before we could live together again, we needed to find out if we could make it. So, this time, it was different, I didn't care about those little things anymore and basically gave her all the freedom in the world. So much so, that I started losing effort in the relationship and foudn myself not caring about things anymore. Well, she noticed - we had a talk a month ago and agreed that we were worlds apart in the relationship. One major problem, we painfully loved each other even though we knew sucked as partners (did I mention she lives 2 doors down?) Anyway (sorry for the rambling.. havent let this out before), I immediately got together with the new girl again (Ally) and to be honest was the happiest guy in the world. I finally moved on from a relationship that dragged and was with the girl I thought about for months. 3 weeks later, I ran into Jess again and my whole world spun around.. I couldn't stop thinking about her and was DIEING to talk to her again. What do I do? I know Jess and I were a bad couple but I am still madly in love with her (i think). I'm starting to realize all those things that drove her mad was purely my fault - do I tell her this? Or, do I give this girl who I think is perfect for me a chance? I can't tell Ally that I need time b/c I already screwed with her before... and there is NO way I will let her go unless it meant Jess and I heal and get back together... so confused . At night, I sleep with Allyson but all I think about is Jess.. it really sucks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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