Can I have alittle advice?

[life_laugh_love]

Hey, I am new to this whole board thing, so can everyone bear with me? Thank you. Anyway, I just had an emotional breakdown yesterday and I was considering ending my life. For months I've been waking up feeling miserable, not willing to do anything and crying my eyes out. Its been really bad because I've been fighting with family, friends, my boyfriend. I would come out of no where in violence rage when I feel bad about it after the fact, but I still do it. I really don't know what to do. Does anyone have any situations? Any tips? Because yesterday was really frightening, and I really don't want to go through another day of being close to a knife and actually going through with it. I feel that I am alone in the world and that people just use me when they want something done, sex, or want me to spend money on them, etc. I had a long talk with my boyfriend about this and I still don't feel happy about the whole situation. He mentioned that I should go on some type of meds, but I really don't want to do that... Ya, over half of America is on some type of anti depressant, but just the thought of it.. I don't know.. Anyone? help?

[Sally00]

You can NEVER go back once you end your life. God gave you life for a reason... you can't play God by ending it. He has a plan for you.

 

Try going to see a professional about this perhaps. They can help you.

 

Just don't end your life over this. It's not worth it.

 

 

live, laugh, and love ...

[nottoogreen]

Hi life_laugh_love,

 

Welcome to eNotAlone,

 

Could you please provide us with more details about what you dislike, hurts you and angers you.

 

Here are some things for you to remember and learn.

Most important to remember and perform.

This is the most important part of this guide. Please take it seriously as your success largely depends on it.

• You are precious, your life is precious and you deserve to be happy!
  
• Look after your body and love yourself!
  
• When someone hurt or abused you it was not your fault!
  
• You have a future, you always will as long as you do not give up!
  
• You deserve to be understood, but to expect understanding is very foolish.
  
• Regrets are the most difficult feelings to deal with.
  
• Life often is like three steps forward and one step back. Expect setbacks and do not let setbacks bother you. Just move along your chosen path.
  
• Realistic expectations. Carefully consider your expectations as unrealistic expectations breed resentment and set you up for failure.
  
• Be realistic about your ability and carefully consider your ability as your failure to meet your expectations hurts you and may hurt others.
  
• Patience and persistence. Changing any situation or yourself takes time and effort. Changing your feelings takes time and is often painful. It does make sense to endure reasonable pain for a better happier future.
  
• Adaptability of your mind. Your biggest strength is that your mind adapts to what you do often and the more so, the more motivated you are. As you move up, your mental ability increases. This strength is also your biggest weakness as your mental ability decreases when you are frustrated or unmotivated. Your mind also adapts to negative thinking. Thus it is important to think positive!
  
• Break circles of thought. If you realize that you think or fear the same again and again, break out of it by telling yourself: STOP, NO WORRIES. Divert your thoughts away from a circle of thought. The Mental survival activities or Exercise activities below may be of help to distract you.
  
• Mental survival activities. Develop one or more mental activities which can occupy your mind and give you a sense of calmness and accomplishment. One activity should be as simple as possible in order to be performable at any time. Exercise these activities regularly. Examples are: writing poems, writing down feelings, drawing, a journal and reading. Use the Exercise activities below as alternative and for backup. Be prepared and never run out of supplies to perform these activities. These activities train you on focusing your mind and give you a sense of accomplishment.
  
• Exercise activities. Develop an interest in one or more physical activities and perform these regularly. Examples are push-ups, sit-ups, running, swimming and biking. At least have one activity you can perform in your room and one out-door activity. Exercise is healthy and gives you a sense of accomplishment.
  
• Be sure you have enough sleep. Sleep deprivation makes manic and leads to countless secondary problems from anxiety, over-acting, over-excitement, over-thinking to under-performing. If you can't sleep, perform Mental survival activities and/or Exercise activities until you relax enough to fall asleep. Given training and experience, you will relax and fall asleep! No pills needed!
  
• KISS - Keep It Simple Stupid. Do not over-act, over-excite or over-think.
  
• Help - If you have questions or need help, please post or seek professional help!
  

[Suladan]

You are never alone. There is always someone there who is more interested in your happiness rather than their own.

 

The best medicine for negative things is a positive attitude. When you are negative the world does appear to be against you, and your negative attitude can actually push others away and isolate you.

 

A positive attitude will shine from you like the light from a star, and the confidence that comes with it will mentally warn people that you are not the sort of person to take advantage of. A positive attitude will make the world seem much easier, and problems will dissolve!

 

A positive attitude is harder to maintain through the difficulties of life. But that is what life is, a challenge. Negative thoughts are easier, and it is easier to do nothing - but life is much more fulfilling and enjoyable if you work hard and have a positive attitude.

 

Happiness doesn't just come to people, you have to think happy and positive thoughts to get it.

[Bethany]

Stop fighting everyone if makes you feel like that, why even bother? Just agree with them for the time being as it takes the anger away.

If you feel like your giving too much, then give yourself permission to give less as this takes the pressure off you and leaves a space for them to give more, your boyfriend particulary.

 

Also...Don't become afraid of the way you feel, take time for yourself to unwind, treat yourself, you deserve it just because you feel that way.

[BrokenWingedFaery]

I think you should talk to a counselor/therapist. If they think anti-depressants might help you, consider it.