Straight From The Heart

[hazeleyed]

As I sat there searching through the old books,

I saw a picture of you and me. I couldn't stop myself from looking at it.

It reminded me of all the times we had, the trust I put into this

the love, the feelings and dreams that were in it all.

 

As I looked deeper into the pages I found that it was all a lie.

As tears rolled down my cheek I began to wonder why.

Even after a few months you remained in my heart even after all the pain that crawled

Sometimes I wish I could just erase it all and stop the pain

Despite knowing how much you hurt me I still had hopes.

With tears in my eyes I gave you many chances feeling you would change for all I knew you just lied over again

 

My friendship never meant anything because it all started with a lie

As the abuse got worse I began to turn cold and became the monster I never meant to be

I retaliated and fought with everything I ever had and now I sit here with an empty soul and heart

Thoughts of us race through my mind when my heart shatters even more. I continue gazing at the picture the night

I found out everything was a joke.

 

I fought the world , I left my friends as I walked towards you with my arms open

I never thought the day would come when I would fight with myself to leave

It was hard, it took courage but the first step was to retrieve

As I looked back over my shoulder I saw the dreams I had built

It all seemed like a sand castle washed away by my tears.

 

A few months later I saw you again laughing and moving on your way.

I felt a tinge of anger and hurt while I hid my tears away.

I wouldn't let you see the scars you left behind because for the first time I knew I could make it inside

I didn't need the world, I didnt need you as long as I had God beside

 

I then understood the meaning of it all and carried it forward as the days passed. I woke up from day to day

and wondered where to start my life. I had nothing yet everything but the worst was loss of sight. The world had seemed

to forgotten me and had moved on their life. It was lonely for the first few times but it built my strength inside.

As days passed, months passed I stopped letting myself hurt With a nervous heart I continued to walk the what seemed

hardest road of my life. Remaining calm I looked above and smiled at the stars

for the first time in many years I laughed once more again.

[robowarrior]

Lovely poem that belongs in the poetry forum.

[TBAngel]

Thanks for the uplifting words. I hope you are walking with you're head up now.

[hazeleyed]

Thank you Robowarrior.

 

Thank you TBAngel: Yes I am trying and I am glad you found my words uplifting.