Loz Posted November 17, 2017 Share Posted November 17, 2017 I have been with my BF 8 years and we have a son. At the beginning I was very sensitive and unreasonable. If a woman come on tv or he looked at page 3 it would be an argument die to my own insecurities. Obviously I do not wish my by to watch porn. He knew about this all along and swore he doesn’t. I got better with the other stuff and I trusted him 100 percent not to watch porn. My bday set up how oen business and I went to work all hours to pay the bills while his business built up. Our relationship took the brunt of this as I was tired and fed up and not seeing my little boy but also he was not help Not me in the house or with little ones homework etc. I was coming home 11 pm and doing the pots and when I picked little one up from school it was homework bath and tea (which I was still doing daily) even if he was off work(which majority of time he was. He never really cleaned or helped out. I was working morning noon and night and cooking and cleaning doing homework and shopping and sorting little one. Things got so on top of me I suffered expression. I was asked to b signed off work but couldn’t afford it. I felt my bed was very unsupportive as he still didn’t help me. I carried on like this for 1 and a half years. We was always arguing and in separate beds. Long story shortened. I found out he had been on porn(cuckolding) I told him to leave as he also did this when we was trying for s baby for 4 years and doctors had told him not to do anything in between but all alone no he was. In the end I called his bluff about his fantasy of cuckolding. Anyway lng talks and we went through with it. This affected me so bad and I still resent him for it. We carried on however as we were but he had swore Mo more porn. I believed him. Anyway a year later he has been in it again. But he has been following swingers sites, and I found dating sites (which he said he hasn’t been on) he disabled find my iphone(says was to hide history) he went on things such as , my wife’s pissy( white bull for cuckold wife , and messages from women coming though and adds of these women on tv, searches his ex plus other women and even a women from a cuckold video he searched her personal profile on fun. Says to nosy at what her life is like- married kids etc. Says all just to be nosy. I feel so hurt and messed up .he has moved out and wants to try again. He says he’s only been on porn amdnot cleaned up enough and everybody things I’m pathetic. Am I being unreasonably please help! Link to comment
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