Eveyrobertson Posted November 10, 2017 Share Posted November 10, 2017 I broke up with my ex almost a year ago and have still been struggling to let go. We dated for a little less than a year and a half. For the most part, we had a wonderful relationship and rarely fought. He was a perfect boyfriend and made me feel more loved than I ever have. There were however uncertainties along the way on my end because I was never sure if I could see a future with him for my own reasons. He often felt this doubt from me and I know it took a toll on him, always feeling like he had to prove himself to me. After experiencing a lot of uncertainty and anxiety the past couple months we were together, I finally decided to ask for some space. I still loved him and wasn’t ready for things to end but I really feel like I needed to take a step back and figure out if this was what I wanted. I know how selfish this sounds and he told me didn’t know if he could wait for me. I told him I understood and knew it was not fair to him but I thought things would eventually work out for us again despite it all. I should also mention he is the most sensitive person I’ve ever met, and had extreme trust issues in the beginning due to past relationships. For months I told him I did not want things to end for us but he said I shattered his heart and he did not feel comfortable reentering a relationship. However he also said he would always love me and never let go but he just wasn’t ready to come back. After going back and forth about it for months, we eventually had NC for about a month and a half. I missed him immensely and decided to reach out one last time telling him how much I loved him, thought about him and missed him and that I couldn’t stop hoping we’d find our way back to each other. He told me that he had been trying to move on and he couldn’t hear me say I still love him and to please respect his wishes to be left alone. I was absolutely devastated by this and knew I had lost him for good. It’s been 6 months since this happened, we haven’t spoken and I don’t know if we ever will again. Even after this all, I think about him all day and cannot seem to let go of him. I have tried everything. I’ve lived with such fierce regret of losing him yet can’t seem to stop having this false hope that he will reach out again to give me another chance. During this time I haven’t been with anyone else at all and still have no desire for anyone but him. How do I move on from this? I’m so desperate. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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