Codi88 Posted June 16, 2017 Share Posted June 16, 2017 It's surreal that half a year has gone by since my breakup. It's like I've had this awful realisation that I've been in a nightmare for 6 months. I miss my ex terribly despite remaining in successful NC for 16 days (that's ages, for us). I'm kinda just having a particularly bad day so my feelings are heightened but I really want to be free of this pain now. At what point does it end? Why do relationships come to all of this? If I saw this coming I would never have gotten into the relationship as this pain isn't worth the good times. I'm completely stuck. I've been with one person in 6 months and even that was disastrous as I freaked out as soon as he got intense and distanced myself after 3 meets. I physically can't get close to anyone else as it seems terrifying, but at the same time, I'm desperately lonely. I'm focusing on myself but I am not enjoying being alone. Surrounding myself with friends and family is cool for a bit but doesn't stop the pain. I really don't know what to do, becoming frustrated of the same advice of 'work on yourself' or 'get therapy' or 'time heals' although I know all of this advice is absolutely right. Like I said I'm in my feelings today so I'm rambling a bit, I realise this. Link to comment
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