Anon333 Posted February 10, 2017 Share Posted February 10, 2017 I dont know if I have a question as much as I wanted to vent. I am so unbelievably depressed today I have neglected anything I should have done today and feel so trapped in this depression I dont know what to do. I had a therapy session yesterday. I just keep feeling like I feel worse. The relationship ended after a long period of push and pull agony. I thought I would be at peace for not having to deal with those ups and downs....But his last text was that he needs to get help and hopes to be with me in the near future and he loves me very much. I cant help but to wonder if this is true or if he just was trying to keep me hanging on while he sees what else is out there. I imagine him already being with someone else. I think he was scared of commitment and didn't want to lose the option of seeing what else is out there. Its hard to understand when when he was with me he acted so in love and caring and attracted to me. If it weren't for him always pulling away and his uncertainty we would have had a beautiful relationship. The only thing that makes me feel at peace at all is that if the relationship wasn't right for him than it wasn't right for me either. If he is happier with someone else than I wish him the best. I dont know if I will ever find someone I will love as much as him but I know eventually I can learn to be happy on my own. Those ore the only things I can be sure of. It is just so hard being left with this love we had for each other hanging in the air. Not knowing what he is thinking. It hurts so unbelievably bad today. Link to comment
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