Mothers Death

[ghstride83]

My mother died almost 2 years ago in July coming up. I shed no tears. Normally I am a pretty dead inside type of person. But lately I hear a song that we used to listen to and I shed in tears. I watch shows and in the bad moments, I tear up. WTH. Why is it that all that stuff affects me, but not my own mothers death? We used to be close but had a falling out with her alcoholism.

[melancholy123]

I never cried when my mother died yet when my dad died I was inconsolable. But then I really loved him, and not her. We never got along. I dont have an answer for you but you are not alone, that's for sure.

[The Cold One]

All I can say is , human subconscious and the way we form memories can be sometimes a bit difficult to understand . My assumption is probably your brain has special moments with your mom linked to these things in one way or another. But not sure though . My condolences

[itsallgrand]

Perhaps it was too much for you to feel at the time, and now you are beginning your grieving for her.

Our brains are really amazing. When something is too much to bear, we may go into shock and shut down, sometimes for a long time.

It sounds like the loss of your mom was a complicated one for you emotionally, so it's possible.

It's ok - we all grieve in our own ways.