To My Muse...

[volution]

Here's a positive one I wrote last year...

 

 

To My Muse [september 2004]

I have waited more than my lifetime

For my Muse to come along.

 

At first, my soul dreamed of grand

Meetings, and electric encounters:

Serenades, and signs, synchronicities,

And songs, so my heart held no doubt.

 

My memory fails me, when I try to

Remember a time that I did not

Yearn for an Anam Cara on the journey

Of my life - a true Soul-friend.

 

From early on, Truths about

How things really are, came from

Within me - yet it took some years

Before I could grasp what they meant.

 

A silver screen played in my mind,

Day and night. I starred in the story

Of my life, with my beloved at

My side - hand in hand.

 

Yet, those stories never had a

Happy ending - for always deep

Down, my essense knew that

Fairy-tales never came true.

 

Late at night, I would craft

Works, of verse, and of

Song - all my soul would

Go into my arts.

 

I never knew that I would face

Such loneliness, and such harrow.

But then, nobody chooses unrequitement -

It chooses them...

 

I got angry at the world, I would

Cry late into the night - feeling such

Cold fire within - screaming out

For my beloved - any beloved - to cure me

 

Of the disease, that ate the lightness

Of my being.

I was so afraid of the dark - even

In the day, I couldn't stop it's harsh

 

Progress - trembling and shaking,

Surely one soul shouldn't be able

To take this suffrage, let alone

Deserve it?

 

Such was the honesty, and intention

Of my quest - all that I sought was

To open the eyes that were closed,

Through the arts, that my Muse

 

Would inspire me to form,

From the awe of her beauty,

The passion of her hold,

And the kindness of her lips.

 

But where could I find her?

My soul came up against such

A dreadful opposition - it was

Punished for what it was outside,

 

Even by those who claimed that

Only that which lied beneath the

Surface truly mattered.

In these times, it felt so alone.

 

How could it find a chance to

Extol it's true nature - a deep

And rare goodness, that so

Many look for, yet so few find?

 

Where others might have half-a-heart;

It would give every beat, and every

Drop of life unto it's beloved -

We would share a special vinculum.

 

Where others might never find a

Steadfast connection - always moving

On unfulfilled; it would stay with

Loyalty and veracity - to the end and beyond.

 

Where they just say words and

Promise deeds out of love's expectation;

My soul would fill it's liebling's life,

With a dedication of spirit.

 

Where they just argue, and fight;

I would learn about myself from looking

Into my Muse's eyes, and share with

Each other The Most Gentle Softness.

 

And where others plainly cheat, lie,

Deceive, forsake and take for granted;

My Muse would never face any of

The disappointments they dish out.

 

Many years have passed, since that

Which was within my soul awakened,

Knowing from beyond, that a special

Task on this Earth awaited it:

 

To walk the path of my life, with

A special love in my heart, shared

With a special love by my side,

Sharing that love with the world;

 

To together open those dreary eyes,

That so long for some light and hope.

To heal a little of the darkness that

Has engulfed so much of our lives;

 

To perhaps bring an enlightened

Life into the world, to continue

The good work, once together

We left for beyond;

 

But first to wish, with every fibre, every

Drop of essense, every thought, every

Hope, every dream, every deed, that

One day, my Muse would find me...

 

I prayed to the universe, to Goddess,

That my wish might be fulfilled.

Finally I have found you,

Will you be my Muse?

[yeawutever]

Very touching, in fact I'll finish the other half of the poem!!!!!!!